kaizen boy

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2009-08-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

moving the blog..

click me: kaizenian!

people are telling me i am such criticism, talking people's bad like publishing news paper, is really awful...
well, upon my graduation as a university student, i had decided to change..
....
so, have a new start, in the kaizenian post ;D

savior

2009-05-29T18:49:00.002+08:00

i got better, in fact, i am ok

special thanks to saviors

i remember once diaane told me: you are my savior! 2 times!
i said: am i?
she said: u don't know, sometimes u just appear to be talking to me in the right time...the save the day..

well, i agree
sometimes, even a smile, a silly grin, will save ur day..
(as well screw urs)

well, refer to the previous post, i am in fire~~
then i post a msg in facebook saying that i want to kill him..
then eldest son come reply and ask isit him..
well, ofcuz not, i love him, then we talk a little and, in the same time blasting song.
surprisingly, he cheer me. my tense got soften and i am relax enough to watch a movie.
i watch a movie with lots of pretty song.oh....

music is miracle isn't it?
indeed, art is... movie, painting, instruments.(maybe just me)

well, thank you el, thank you for the movie, thank you for the songs..

(right after my conversation with el, then i watch movie, right after the movie, el appear and have conversation with me again, wow.
then my fren came and drag me to dinner..thou i am not in the mood, but then eating with 2 lecturers, and a wise couple. maybe i talk crap too much, realize that talking to people with lots of knowledge and wisdom, is a little pressure, but exciting...

so, my day is saved...

bliss
(back to psp)

i hate u

2009-05-29T15:07:00.005+08:00

猪八戒

as seems as we all hear the bell ringing
放学的钟声响起，我们都听到，收拾着书包~
看看四周，我在这里5年了，
我曾经说，我不会爱上这个地方的
那时好久以前的事了

once very long ago, seeing 18 year old big brother is like oh,
they are so huge!
while then when u are 18, u realize how 'not a big deal' it is~
so what? 18~

but then looking at a person 21, wow
they can do whatever they want, legally!
oh,
while then, i plays the same song, 'so what'

journal bearing

please take a very careful glance, u will see a very pretty breast eye lady!

the cover page of my notes~chapter 2 i think..

别人问，毕业了，干什么啊？
我说啊，不知道，前路茫茫

these pictures, is my drawing during this exam period..
this is my life,
i draw in everything, but well.. i always not to mess up with the serious stuff, like notes,
but everything beside the notes, will not be rescue.

is this fault:

一入豪门深似海
出了图书馆的门，离开了mmu的门口，是permata dunia 吗？

--
short circuit suddenly, where i have to pay the remaining bills, streamyx, electric and water,
and!
i fucking hate my housemate where he is told about the bills, rm150 per person, then he got disappear back to hometown ( i guess) without any prior notice!
so what now?
i have to pay on behalf of him! i am leaving this place soon, i exhausted all my fund in my pocket these few weeks to have better life! (but ofcuz, i have reserve some for any surprise， but not these!)

for more than a years, i never pressing button of the ATM　because of insufficient fund!
i arrange my cash nicely, and i seldom have the situation where i have to press atm machine!
and now i have to because i have to pay for u!
fuck u!

this is not all,
i press it out little, little enough to have my dignity of not pressing the machine, and add on my reserve fund, i am able to pay it. but this exhausted every of my cash i have in reserve.!
i have no more money!
i NEVER WILL ALLOW MY SELF TO HAVE NO RESERVE FUND!

oh, and the situation came,
i have a pair of rackets, where i ask my fren to bring it to repair if he going to 'the place with repair', and today, he said he is going there.
right after i pay my bill, he appear to collect my racket...

good...
FUCK U FUCK U!
i screw my pride to have reserve fund, and i end up have no money to do what i want...for monthS!

i am so pissed!

i h a t e u

(racket got repaired? no! he said he don have the money for my thing either!
ya, it is mine, and i ask u to help me on the repair, how am i going to expect u pay it....)

小毕

2009-05-23T14:38:00.003+08:00

下个星期三，考试

由于，这个学期，只是拿两科，其中一是室课外活动，所以，就比较轻松，
而且，那一科，有了大大小小的mid term, 6 个这么多！6 个小考勒！
所以靠final的时候，就更加像是复习罢了，
再说，我们都快毕业了，要好好的享受每一天学生天~

最近玩乐很多，也很忙~
fyp hardcover deadline, 的时候，我们依然很忙，忙着找老师签名。。。
来去匆匆，才发觉，老早觉得已经解决的事情，到当时了，还没有完结！很是纳闷！
但是，真的完了，就明白，完了。。。
完了就完了，老早就庆祝了~
提早庆祝~ 好复杂的感情



我是kaizen boy!

我还是会去图书馆，但是却没有心机读书，

有人说；
既然只有一科，我要拼了老命，考个“我很尽力！”的最后一科

有人说：
都快毕业了，还那么拼么？花点时间玩吧～　同学戴安娜说：说:拿1st class的，也不用担心这一两科的影响，拿不到1st class 的，这两科也帮不到什么~

我呢？我怎么说？
好好读，好好玩～

无所事事的时候，我就会涂鸦～

i thought!

2009-05-14T14:26:00.002+08:00

i got my fyp over with...
i thought! last week, after the submission of the report, and my presentation..
ops,
the truth is, is NOT!

the hardcover amendment!
the report we submit it to our supervisor and moderator, we have to collect it back from them,
and do the necessary amendment, and they will have to sign before we can do the hard cover.

as for others, the amendment is more like oh, see the grammatical error, oh, look, this line don't have full stop, oh, this statement should be in italic..
well, for mine,
X
eg:
1. he cross out my chapters, and tell me WRONG! rewrite!
2. <-- shouldnt this be in chapter 5?
3. ALL FORMAT WRONG in reference!

many more, this is big one...
well, this is the final already, why he didnt tell me before i submit the report..
sigh, the pity of being a abandoned student!

well, today is the due date of hardcover making.(there is a official hardcover making of the faculty, the due date of collection is today), well outside private one also have the same service, but by using the faculty service is more secure...
and what i am doing now? is waiting for his email reply..

(should i knock his door ? ohya...i tried that this morning 930 am,
but too bad, he like email...)

please!
just let me get over with this!

*.*
i want to play!

a little bit of complication randomize

2009-05-05T18:09:00.003+08:00

had the test yesterday night, monday night, by the lecturer from egypt, who wish that there is not free time for student...
well, it was alright...
we took it quite easy... i back to klang and relax since thursday...and come back on sunday night..
then i stuck in the jam for 3 hours(normally cost me 1hour 30 mins)...
when i came back to mlc, i start scolding sue from seremban, bcuz...i think seremban is the main reason of the jam!

did i bring notes along? duh~ ofcuz not
start study on monday after lunch time..

actually the lec did told us what is coming out, and well..
it is true, with some additional surprise.. nvm, i just don't feel much negativity, or positivity

then we went to hot spring in gadek... (picture is for reference only, it wasnt that pretty at all)
but the smoky was real a little, and it is damn so high temperature

need some burning, fasten the heart beat, and unclog all the clog pores and veins
relief the muscles tension and phew~~
(ouch, it burns!)

i forget did it relax me or not, but i have good time spending time away from ...
all the...thesis, presentation, test..stuff. spending some time with the bitches, have clear skies with stars and moon, McD after that..
seems to be so luxurious~

well, as for now, back to the reality ..(consume my whole morning to back to the reality, i simply just slumber in the bed), the presentation of the fyp~
start doing the slides on today, while the presentation on thursday, which is the day after tml.
pressure? a little...but regarding who am i going to consult.

rise again, the complication of having 2 supervisor:
khaled?
sim?

why such bad fate have to fall here!

nvm~share some random pictures

returned all the library book, except the 4th one
late return, cost me around rm30...
huge number, due to my laziness to renew them from time to time.
why the 4th one not yet return? cuz i have to sent it to photocopy...
why do i particularly need to phootcopy that?
reason:
1. it is written by Imai Mizaaki, the one who introduce kaizen in 1986
(kaizen? is my thesis title)
2. this book is publish at 1991, very hard to find, even mmu mlc library cannot find. i got this book from other university library thru mmu intra, interlibrary loan

i guess it is valueble to keep a copy...even not the ori one (i can't get one)

submission day in FET office, not very crowded..
a little bit of...special? feelings...after the submission.
is a little of unwillingness to give the baby to the person, as well afraid that there is a big error there printed, yet not noticed... weird

found this thru the prom night picture database, oh, this is my favourite

hanging out in the furniture exhibition with my parent at labor day~

wishing good luck charm

to the skies of blue i call upon
dust mud sand of all creatures i whisper
wind roaring shall bring the good luck i wish of
bring me the courage, the energy
the fyp will end nice and smooth

to the kids who have interviews, goodluck

to my dear baby son who is sick~ get well soon

praying to the nature

闲了点

2009-04-29T15:59:00.003+08:00

悠哉闲哉~

把论文解决了~
然后，又帮了帮败家子弄一弄，（过后知道有meye帮他，我就不用出手了）
果然，长得帅，就是有特别的待遇，别人总会帮你~

我还是有考试，还是要交功课，特别讨厌这个老师，
总是怕死我们得空似的~
但是，突然就觉得得空了~

想看戏，想去海边吹吹风~
想去温泉，想和朋友们去旅行，
想窝在冷气里看漫画，吃苹果
想看杂志
想无所事事
想继续收集散播在四处的照片~

喝汽水~
（今天早上printing 到530am, 去mcD都吃早餐了~）

breeze

2009-04-28T18:42:00.002+08:00

yeah! my supervisor finally replied my email!.

well, he commented on things...
and i just finish doing all the changes~

i have class tonight, and after my class, i will do my double checking, and there goes
the PRINTING~

the work is not perfect, it is not even to be said as good job..
but, well... i do put effort..
maybe lesser than those who have sleepless night for months~
still, thinking that tml is the submission.

suddenly,

breeze..
know? the kind of feelings~

~~
what? what?
assignment due this thursday?
what?
nex monday is test 3?

screw u Mr. N, from the pyramid..

phew~ is the breeze
i am going home this week..

sad sial

2009-04-28T12:30:00.003+08:00

today, is tuesday
tml is the submission day of the legendary fyp~

had my supervisor reply my email?
no, ofcuz not
surprise? not...

jiayung can always get to see his supervisor can have intimate relationship by gossiping

weijia can always see his supervisor by making appointment via SMS, and having intimate relationship of dating each other to play badminton

ryan who have the same supervisor as i do, always complain how bad he is...(ya, we both agree), but apparently, he replied his email...

wu wu wu...
and...
my ex kaiyeh abandoned me, and i still seek where he runaway and seek him for consultation..
and for the current supervisor, he never like to see me...
then tell me to WAIT for his email..which never come~

T.T

prom+drama+fyp 3 days

2009-04-27T17:05:00.004+08:00

saturday,
prom day
ya, we don't consider prom as 'night', not prom night, because it consume a day, not just a night.
in the morning, we went out to shop for stuff~~
i just feel like for what i am wearing, short of something...
well, i end up with nothing helpful.

pretty?
..
..
..
just for prank~
fren's vest, bow tie, spec and my own rainbow shirt..

i wear this:

is bored i know,
just like the last time, all black~
a glimpse to the pass

the me with golden hair~
wakakaka

TVB superstar pose

humans...

hollywood
:D

well, the night end with supper at station 1...
till around 3am...
it kills me from then..

sunday 6am, i am instructed to gather in the school..
ya, AM
for the drama practice
(i am taking co-curriculum theater and we are required to do a performance, drama performance.)
i miss lots of the practice, and meeting..cuz i am busy, and it was bored, and i am always not needed..
i am a cast, well, a big K'llefe, the policeman who appear for less than 30 second at the end of the drama, come in the arrest the psycho out..
this drama performance cost us '40%', i will have to perform the ' i am putting lots of effort' thing as well, for the evaluation by the leader and lecturer..

ya, lunch break and dinner break for one hour each..
performance at night, rehearsal for the day

the chicken cast~

the drama then end at 12am, and finally i get to sleep..3am
for few hours,
my supervisor who promise to meet me in the weekend, obviously, fail me
and i can't scold him..

i meet him at 1030am
here goes the conversation that kills my day:
i said: good morning sir

he: yes?

i said: sir, regarding report? (he promise to check for me and meet me in the weekend)

he: i do not have time to read it for u

i said: ....

he: you must wait for ur turn, u are the last one who sent in....

i said: ... (?)

he: u sent in on friday in the 3am... (checking his mail..), and u sent me another one on saturday morning asking me whether i read it already or not....

i said: i sent u on thursday, right after i meet you...the one on friday is the editted one..

he: ya, ofcuz, u expect me to read the one on friday right?

i said: basically they are the same, the friday one i just editted the format...

he: ya,i know... u have to understand that on weekedn, we actually~~ (the look of 'i don't work on weekend')

i said: ya, i understand...

he: u just wait, i will reply your email (he screw many many of appointment by not replying email, his 'i will reply ur email' sucks)

i said: (very innocently) so what i can do now?

he said: i will reply ur email by today

(well, now is 6pm....do i still have to knock his door in the 10am by tomorrow?
i always do this, he hates me for this... i think..hahaha
and he will tell me: do u know that our working hour is until 5pm?)

sigh~ long sigh~

now my report is not done, and there is nothing i can do at all~
it suck!
(there was a performance at 11am, i can't make it..
i am too dull to play something cheerful)

since there is nothing i can do, i sleep the day off~

混乱

2009-04-23T22:43:00.004+08:00

最近完结了演奏会，心情放松了不少，却也还是紧绷的，
因为有毕业论文，既是传说中的fyp啦，

然后心里其实有点懊恼，有点纳闷
现在看见乐团的同学们，就像是当时的乐队的同学。。
曾经我把华乐团的感觉和铜乐队比，就发觉一点像，却没有很像~
但是，这离别在即的感觉，、却一摸一样

当时的自己，是那么的不舍得的每一个人
我似乎已经看见那个不舍的重演了~那么的难过

这演奏会，穿这黑色衣服，带着的银色领带，和当时铜乐队的阿演奏会衣服，怎么一摸一样呢~
怎么说：下次记得回来看我们，
怎么都一样呢！
怎么一样的！

算了，

无奈在论文，
我是被supervisor 抛弃的学生，不是我不好，是别的学校给了他更好的待遇，结果就跑路了~
然后，我就被调配给别的老师，
结果，我两边跑，见了从前的，抛弃我的那一个，然后他说了一套，我做了那一套
然后，见了现在这一个，给他看了那一套，结果根本就不是他要的那一套，结果要我做另外一套~
可悲啊~
同学天天在msn status 倒数，今天的倒数，还有6天~
这些人怎么可以天天在倒数呢！
还有一个笨蛋，天天不要睡觉的在做，让我觉得自己好像无所事事~

但是，又还是会去fb,玩下mafia war, 却一直给人打抢！
去poker 那daily bonus, 2k
去malaysia kini, 看看什么时候又补选。。。
然后，今天，看了这一篇，解决了我心头的困扰：
http://malaysiakini.com/columns/102976

民主特质之一：劳民伤财

原来是本质，
其实当我看见penang又补选的时候，就在思考，会不会他麻烦的一点，是不是太浪费钱了呢？
我还小，见解当然还很嫩，
看了这一篇文章，就明白，是应该的~

*老师说这个周末会帮我看看我的论文，心里忐忑不安，
希望他好好帮我看看，却也希望他不要改太多，我没有时间改了~

the figure shown above is the 1st concert and the 2nd concert
突然觉得很骄傲，两场演出，自己都有参与~

symphonious odyssey part 2

2009-04-20T23:21:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_pwgKPZ2NS8&feature=related
Oogway ascend

yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, and today is a gift, that's why it is say as 'present'

admiring the photographer...
at this angle... nice

things that i had busy for days, is now in a picture, recording in a blog, as history...

大哥说，演奏会很好～

i thought i will always be the odd one in picture, as i always have the worst pose..
but in this, jiayung, urs is awkward!

blowing part~

family,
thank you for coming~

photo is more than 2 G in my hand, this is the few i selected~
thank you for coming, thank you for listening...

symphonious odyssey,
shall the odyssey end by engraving the symphonious in everyone heart~ -lucas-

this is a odyssey, for me, for us all

绚音翔旅ｓｙｍｐｈｏｎｉｏｕｓ　ｏｄｙｓｓｅｙ part 1

2009-04-20T17:52:00.005+08:00

i am the one responsible for these,
i am so proud of myself, they are so damn pretty!

the concert ended, nicely

i like it, it was nice
thou, comment form feedback, ofcuz, negativity comment exist
well, some complication then arise, some say that hate the song, saying it better not exist, but somehow, some people like it...
just have to know how to filter those comment...

after the concert, some of the kid collected the comment form and start reading,
i intended to took it from them, but then they wish to read it..so i let them, then i left
i have big portion of the comment form with me, after i read them, some of the comment kinda sarcastic, phew~ i got a little dull seeing those.
i wish i could take those comment form from the kids, being harsh and snatch it away..
some of the comment is too harsh for them..my bad

anyway, it end, nice

suddenly the complains i have in mind, faded out,
instead, the compliments and gratitude, got contrast...

the load of being a performers and a oc, double identity, is hard
but double identity person, is needed,
it is like the bridge linking the organizing and performers..if there is no link, the organizing person will not much understand hows the performance, what kind of performance it will bring..
ofcuz, communication link can still exist, but the communication can only be done verbally, the feelings cannot be deliver.
ya, i am now expressing the gratitude towards myself, and those double identity person like me.

the general and the mastermind 将军与军师
呵呵，也是渔舟凯歌的代表，吹吹打打～

however, i was wishing that the photographer would have taken the backdrop in the picture, like this one..
the backdrop is clearly seen, pretty!

i was lucky, as a performers, as i doing the leading or solo parts..
one of the song, certain part, is my horror zone,
50-50,
sometimes it can be achieve, and sometimes, can't...
i don have lots of time to practice it N time to make it 100%, manage to get it at most to 60%..
so i am worried..i have to

recall my lecturer said: when u exam, u are worried, u are in the right direction!
only when u had work hard, u will be worried..if u don't, u have nothing to worry at all~ nothing to lose wat!~
when u are worry, only u can make it..

so, i worried
and phew~ luckily, i got it thru~

(reading the feedback form, it have compliment, as well negative comment, but not that bad~
i met my instrument teacher, he said i was alright..
my fren said i did some mistake..well, i can't recall any...)

this boy is mechanical junior, playing erhu~
my eyes hardly open...
honestly, i am damn tired

the blowing part~
...ya ya ya, i know, they are all same but me, i heard them saying to cross the leg to the left, but then i ignore, end up i am the odd one~

look at my panda eye bag..is at the state of horrible....

the photo collecting from all the cameras, is in progress...
more photo and caption to be upload..soon
to be continue......

累

2009-04-16T11:36:00.002+08:00

很累了，才明白
自己真的不是无敌的，会死掉的~

最近忙演奏会东西，忙到三餐不继，早上到晚上，
双重身份的人们，特别忙，既又是演奏员，又是筹委

彩排，集合，走场，
工作，布置，开幕，送礼云云

忙得不亦乐乎

到最后，节目组，都好像杂务了，
全部东西都包办，连布置都牵涉了，因为设计组的人说他们忙部景，根本不可能抽空了，
买东西啊，节目组都做了
（一天的结束，去喝茶的时候，人家就问起，今天怎么的没有什么什么？
然后我就说，这个好像也是节目组的工作哦~）
荒唐了

我的司仪，3个人，
一个在总彩排过后，我们brief 他节目流程，走了排位，结束了之后，他只明白一件事情：
‘我不要做司仪了’
他没和我说，却和一些别的筹委说了，筹委们就私低下讨论怎么样办~
筹委是担心我受不住，会哭出来吗？
都不好笑，好笑的是他们私低下讨论的结果，是我去做司仪

更奇怪的事，我听到他告诉我的时候，我都不吃惊，也不惊讶，
好像理所当然的事

我受得气，太多了
我吃下的死猫，也太多了~

明天还考试呢~
还真地想要有分身呢

sad news 2

2009-04-13T17:40:00.002+08:00

sad

my blog another sad news

my neighbor die of heart attack ...(Malacca neighbor)

he always like me to play dizi,
he is the one praising me when i practice for the dizi grading examination, he motivated me most..
he knock the house window when i was playing dizi in the house, and ask me to play outside..

he died..

i play dizi just now, 菊花台，
i never know he died just now, then i know..
uncle, this song is for u...

rest in peace..
(T.T)

human are vulnerable, random things just happen...
people, appreciate everything, everyone around u, tell them u love them, show them u love them.. u never want to regret a day when things change and u never have the chance again..

asang, 烦乱

2009-04-07T00:21:00.010+08:00

t

deepest condolences
阿桑，a-sang, the Taiwanese female singer dies

sad sad
i always remember her song, as in the video
i am so in love with the gal, liu yifei....and the song matching the series.
i always got charmed by it...never stops

well, i just had my test over just now,
i just had the promotional exhibition opening done
(including the preparation, the decoration..blabla..)

pretty banner

never see a booth guarded with chinese instrument on the play?
oh, this is stunning, guzheng and yang qing...

precisely, it is guard by the pipa and erhu..(opposite of the exhibition board)

having exam day at the opening of the exhibition is simply driving me crazy..
we have performance, playing pop song to attract student audience..

following of the day, i couldnt concentrate in anything,

test at night,
fyp on the run,
booth selling ticket..

i hangout in the booth, thinking about the concert progress...
maybe i am being too 'control', i should just let go a little to escape from the stress...
well, i feel not much pressure for the test... is not that i am confident, is that i am not that concern...i don know why

after the test,
after the exhibition opening...
i shall take a rest... (feeling sleepy in the exam hall. yawning and have a very watery eye...:D)

符咒！my fren said this gal is scary, can be a charm sticking on the wall of female toilet..

cheers

胡说八道，翔旅前战篇

2009-03-29T17:06:00.005+08:00

剑兵昭君是《翔旅》战役的军师，和麻衣将军共事，
我们都有奇怪的癖好，就是喜欢说是非~
哈哈哈哈
说统帅的坏话~

都不是专职的将士，我们都有着自己的生活，就是爱好者音乐，聚集在一起的兵
但是士兵的发挥，却还需要很好的舞台，
一直以来自己的战斗，都以士兵的身份，因为知道作为统领，是要伤脑筋的，
这一次，自己觉得自己的脑子开化了，担起军师身份，竟然，头痛，然后笑不出~

部署战役，很头痛

昨日有个战役，是翔旅大战的前战
虽然是小战役，却也让我的脑子出血了~
将军大人几天前的排练也崩溃了，他是最辛苦的了~

小战役算是赢了，
我突然觉得，司仪就像是战场上的鼓手，打击鼓声来鼓舞战士，鼓舞人群，
辛苦他们了，还是临时的。。
我的观众朋友说他们频频词穷。。虽然。。

更加地了解很多小兵，可以很多音乐过的孩子们在一起，觉得很好

然后，突然想起《赤壁〉，想起周瑜和诸葛亮在阵台上观阵的时候，
但阵型布阵好了，周瑜就加入战斗了，诸葛亮就只有看的分
我是军师，我也是战士，自觉是不错的战士，但是武功明显的退步了,
退了一步，推了推身边的剑兵，然他往前去。。。
我的时间都得花在部署了，我没能好好的练习了，自然的得让想出位的小孩往前去了
突然，想念起以前的战斗，剑兵的前锋的自己。。。

爱出风头吗？我读过个文章，说，学表演的，最重要的是要：喜欢表现自己
学唱歌的，就得喜欢在舞台上唱给所有的人听，学图画的，就给有着信仰有一天人们的墙上，会挂上自己的图画，学钢琴的，就得发梦着有一天可以有自己的演奏会，
而做士兵的，就得希望自己可以从这么多人的军队里，成为前锋，然人看到自己
我可学得很糟糕，
我喜欢让人看见自己的努力，自己的成绩，却害怕别人看到自己的不努力，不用功
这个害怕，就让我胆怯，
我算是失败的表演者了，不是表演得不好，是有着害怕

加上自己的担子，知道自己没有时间练习了，埃，不会进步的，能不害怕为前锋吗？

江山有人才辈出，有着前锋梦的孩子可多了~
这次的我，会让音乐的孩子有着表演的舞台，

当然，还有队伍的后援队，少不了的
在我双身份的在战役上，女王陛下可帮了我不少，我处理了个开头的东西，都让他接着办，是他offer help 的，然后一直说我做了很多东西，谢谢我
我还谢谢他呢，他怎么可以谢谢我呢，这都是我的分内事，他帮了我完成，还来和我道谢，
对于所有士兵，后援队的辛苦，我不会说谢谢的，因为这战役，不是为了我的，是大家的，
你的付出，不是为了我，我的付出，也是为了大家的
（虽然我很想说谢谢大家,谢谢谢谢，一百次了在心头里说，但是，我总觉得道理上，我是不该和你们说谢谢的）

没有办法，既然不能说谢谢，在战役结束后，我看到几个勇将，几个永远都在的将士，将军啊，西施啊，貂蝉。。
我抱抱了每一个他们，心里说，谢谢你们了

concert event, starts

2009-03-29T02:01:00.007+08:00

28.03.09 our concert event, starts with a jonker street performance

preparation starts few days ago, from 10am to 12am
is AM yea.. killing me disastrously..

nah, today is not the post to complain..is a sharing post

1pm gather, yet only 5% of attendance is satisfied...people are enough to start practice at 2pm plus
(ya, i understand why last time band will have to punish late comers, it is so necessary)

big fat one if our conductor (kwang hua band babies, remember kim leng? looks so alike)

4pm, we are there at the place, no air con place, no back stage, no dressing room, nothing..
is a open space stage...
this is at the market open area (market is close at evening, is a morning market)
the chicken still coo coo coo inside the market...we are pathetic

.
the partition board design..not by me..totally not me
(i totally understand i am not with 10 body to control everything.... i will keep my mouth shut)

the weather was hot, and..... lots thing to be settle, baby conductor got frustrated and punching a gal....3 guys was so happying seeing 2 gals fighting...
(i am experience performers, i remember to bring fan..)

performers dinner time~~
babies, lets eat
(people are so very hard to control, discussing where to eat cost us 25 minutes...
i try to be the tour guide and making everyone 'move it move it'
...not powerful enough..

the evening, at around 630, preparing, standing by...
the day is still bright...

day lights off, the sunset, the music begun
(well, we plan for 8pm starting, but the crowd was attracted by our set up and sound, people are sitting in the seats, and some of them start waiting since hours ago...
we discuss for few minutes and decided, call for the start at 730...)

MC start their talking...
oh, they make me feel proud...i choose them, lucky me
(they are not perfect, but good enough)

totally virgin mc.... experience wise virgin mc..
their script by themselves, 24 hours ago...
is part of the high committee's fault, lots of candidates and lots of MC suggestion, end up by the beginning of the week, no MC still...
then i will have to decide and create one...

perform then done..
play 10 plus song, we have a 20 minutes break in between, and have lots of suddenly add on song due to the crowd get really crowded, we do not want to waste the chance..
add on song means, song that v do not anticipate...
in the stage...say, XXX later..start..
(discussion was done in the stage too..totally random)

some complication, but...overall...OK

picture with the working committee,
phew~ they work as hard, they distributing flyers, selling tickets, giving information, collecting donation....

hehe, share some pictures

....
(my fren then tell me: u better off not talking if u are not happy to take..
i simply like this picture...emotino contrast..totally random)

nvm, i know i have special 'expression' in picture, yet people never like..

the formal one, the one everyone expected to have..
grin..stupid

..well, the lorry to bring the instrument should be there in half hour after the performance,
too bad, v waited for about..more than one hour..
what can v do around there?
lying around the limited chairs, hiding behind the partition board....
and take picture to kill time..
perfect..

U mobile should pay me some advertising fees...

baby conductor...

1990 kid, remind me off my kid
(i make him...looks like a kid when taking picture...)

this is a senior of mine..
sorry, i totally dunno what this picture means....

much more pictures..
but, something cannot be capture...

memories

credit to lian fang...
this is classic..;D

earth hour~!

2009-03-25T16:04:00.007+08:00

this saturday huh

28.3.09 i having my promo performance in jonker,
my committee ask me last month: kaimun! i tell u bad newS! 28.3 that day is earth day!
i said: er...so? we cannot perform?
KK : people will switch off the light from 830 to 930! our performance time
i said: don't worry, malaysia people don bitch with this kind of thing..
KK: will de! really leh! last year ... (blabla)
i said: people that will switch off the light, will either stay at home in the dark, or go out to have fun at place with light, so we are at jonker, the place where people have fun, i don't think the light will go off~ well, i still think so... see

little bit of differences only~ hahaha everyone of us support this crap, sorry i don't have special feelings on this facts are telling us how much energy it can save and blabla, the earth is dying, vote for the earth blabla
is like, i slap u everyday, raped u, humiliate u, and at ur birthday, i will buy u a cake and smile to u for one hour... duh, save it~ the pollution and the harm human races cause on earth is getting more and more terrible, and hour of light switching off, it wouldnt really help much...

want to say at least is something? there are 'at least of something to do' instead of an hour for every year'

v all know, human races C.A.N.N.O.T resist the developement, (ya, try ask middle east stop digging the oil, ask all country do not built useless building, down to urself, not to change ur phone forever until it rot? not to change ur computer until the motherboard deteriorates? not to use plastic item? announce apple Iphone is the best phone on earth..forever, no more RnD is allow..)
anyone wants this? vote for earth? ya, then produce more nuclear weapon, and hitler, to kill all human race...yea, earth will live then.

alright, i am extremies,
since we cannot resisit development, and development means killing the earth, and still want to live. .. we can do 3R!
reuse, reduce and recycle...
prolonged the life span of earth.

3R is an attitude, not a occasionally, happening things to do..
not like oh! today is my birthday, lets recycle... or so happening waking up in the morning and say, lets 3R..
happening is 12... oh, i miss happening 12

sigh~
alright, i didnt say this earth hour idea is total crap, at least it brings out the awareness that the earth is dying~
is kinda cute to hold the knife cutting the earth and say, save her save her...

currently doing FYP, is killing me~
(something in facebook:
KF: oh, XX is killing me
invi: then write ur death will here...

..yeah, damn funny

-i am so happening to become a very blogger person lately, cuz there is not much i can do,
watching series will kill a day, movie will kill 2 hours, shopping will kill my wallet, amusepark will kill both hours and cash, while i have not much of both,
i can either concentrate on FYP, or someone computer, blog is nice~can scold people~

(lila wongie,my grad trip to thailand... we have trip to thailand at july august, u better remember very nicely! else i will set a wongie hour for u, meaning i will only treat u good one hour per year)

最短的ｍｉｄ　ｂｒｅａｋ

2009-03-24T22:11:00.004+08:00

本来7天的假日，草草结束~
已经回在马六甲了

星期五那天，跟了学校戏剧班去klpac,看：
日本来表演的，
用一个字总结：kinky
然后，不错啦，我喜欢的，怪异的东西我本来就特别有喜好~而且又好笑
（觉得我很有闲情去看戏剧？大错特错！我的课外活动拿着一课，不去我会流失分数的，然后看了要写报告的，不写也会流失分数）

然后就回家，让我的父亲来带我~
然后，就假期了

假期并不好过~
期末，就和父母亲，去见了好几个商业presentation, 就会很明白，presentation 真的是很重要的~
有一个笨女人，他的presentation material 乱到~满桌子，然后自己找不到，自己弄乱自己的图~
我听了15分钟，我就离席了~
笨女人，浪费我的时间~
哈哈哈

然后，我的脑子里，就都是这个星期六的表演的安排~
为了4月的演奏会，现在是宣传期，~
然后我既然是节目组组长，宣传节目，就也是我搞的
结果，我小小的头颅，就好像膨胀了

人问我，为什么会烦呢？不就是做而已阿
可以‘做‘而已，我就不烦了，是太多变数了，variable 啊！
很多个怎么样时没有答案的，现在没有答案，等一下就有了，然后又没有了！
就好像mc酱，
我说：我决定给小乐，然后找一个partner 给他~然后呈现了给大家看看一个列表，candidates of mc
大众然后就开始提出别的candidates, 然后开始讨论别的人选~
最后把联络号码给我~

联络人啊，这个那个，到最后，谁都不可以~
兜兜转转，最后什么人都没有！
然后？没有人跟进的了，剩下负责找mc的自己！
讨厌死了，还来问我mc怎么样办了~

结果，我找回小乐，还有他的朋友，小v
还有5天给这两个没有做过mc的小朋友准备，真的是贱人们

(还有很多烦人的东西，我写了，就连你们也烦，就还是算了~）
儿子说，喜欢看胡说八道小文章，好高兴儿子喜欢！）

除了这笨蛋的华乐东西，还有ｆｙｐ，　还有！
ｆｙｐ　这种ｔｅｃｈｎｉｃａｌ得来，然后没有一点消遣价值的就算了，
还有一个，ｔｒｉｐ！　
我们在计划着毕业旅行，然后，就变成我在处理这一切旅行的东西～　
吃力不讨好，有些人啊，喜欢喜欢就变卦，好像我真得很得空

星期一，昨天，我去见了那个做旅行社的淫娃，　然后，总结了～９个人～
我没有给钱，我妈妈说，你给了就死了，人类是会变卦的～
姜是老的辣，我在相信我的朋友不会这么样对我的同时，下午就有一个贱男人来说他还要想一想～

如果不是这个贱男人张得帅，我根本就要和他绝交了！

不过，还好没给钱~

贱帅就黑下白下，变来变去，
今天，我忍不住了！我骂他！
然后他又扮可怜~
算了，我不要理这个人了~
然后，tony就说，他又找了一个人加入，~！
我想：反正贱帅去不去他自己也不知道，我又告诉淫娃会有9个人去，让这人填下去，刚刚好~
就在这个时候，贱帅就来了，msn, 说：去吧！

麻烦的男人，bitching with me~

有时候，我真想让许多朋友看我的blog, 但是，看看~
就看着一篇文章，可以得罪很多人的了~
还是算了~
虽然我不在乎你知道我在骂你，但是真的是没有必要告诉你我在你背后骂你～
再说，
有时候，我只是气在心头，说得某些人很糟糕，其实，根本不是这样的，
有是我根本就嘴巴很坏（写得很坏），但是，也不是真的那样的～
哈哈，就很放纵啊

所以，如果你看到我在骂你，你来问我吧
我讨厌你的话，我干脆重复多一次给你听，
我喜欢你，但是文章里得罪了你，我会和你道歉，然后和你做爱～

好久没有喜事了
好想看ｂａｂｙ

会吃小狗的ｂａｂｙ

confuse

2009-03-19T12:05:00.007+08:00

成为了让人担心的角色~
昭君何颜见将军~

this friday got test, test is irritating~
my whole week, stuck with the contraint of 'friday got test'

when i am doing fyp: i keep thinking that i should put test in priority since it is this friday
when i am watching basketball: arh!!! shouting like hell! my fren comment: u are rough

when i am eating, sleeping, slumbering, went to Chinese orchestra meeting, practice, performance... (another not so well performance: lesson: must warm up before play)
constraint like 3+9+X < 5 friday got test, friday got test~~

X suppose to be a variable, but in this case, it is a negative variable
it is so contraint! it has to be negative!

when i releasing negative energy, i will unconsciously summon...O文，
he will eat everyone sweet dreams
unless u scare him:

by telling him! i can dig my eye out!

confuse i feel
i wanted to dig my eye out, and get over will all the test, exam, assignment, lab, fyp...
and skip all this away to my vacation plan on 16 june to bangkok~

in the same time, i am scare, i am not willing to leave all this life i've been living since 5 years ago~
i have life here, i almost abandon life i had in klang, i wonder if i had went back, who else i can talk to about the general, about 7 fairies, about Nabil that scare of flies...
who else i can call in 12am and ask them to yumcha, 8am for dimsum...

lifang told me, this is life

with books~

胡说八道-七仙篇

2009-03-16T14:50:00.003+08:00

下午醒来，就很讨厌，为什么总不能早一点醒
浪费了很多的时间~

胡思乱想，天花乱坠的幻想力，突然的七仙人好像变成了一个故事
本故事纯属虚构，如有巧合，就可能是真的
看故事的人，人物介绍请看之前的文章，是7人仙

话说有一个国家，叫化乐国，
这个国家的人们，都向往快乐，信仰音乐~音乐就是神

这个国家不大，以前还是附属国，然后就独立了，
独立的时候，全部人民，都信仰者音乐，信仰音乐的人民，就是士兵，可以保家卫国

而我，是其中一个卫士~
以前的国王，皇亲国戚，高官云云，都是战士，保家卫国的勇者
然后将军是开明将军，虽然有时混混沌沌，不理国家大事，但是说道他的武功，可就无人能及了
他领导者士兵卫士们，行军大战，
虽然，剑兵队里有‘玻璃’，会让我不自在，但是，将军重视看重我，然我觉得欣慰，
让我觉得他是伯乐~

将军的流放，贵族们也换了很多个~

我突然就放了假，到处去旅行~

突然，听到了故国来了个大将军，麻衣大将军~
这不是久违了的大将军吗？记得以前有一场战役是他带队的，我还没忘了他的风采~
然后巧遇国家的女王，艺龄~ 他说记得我是个卫士，说我们剑兵队需要人~
然后，我就回国了~

虽然我看不惯很多王公贵族，大臣们，都不信仰音乐，都不是战士~
还真的是贵族~只处理士兵们应该怎么样，却不上战场，有的连武功都不会~
不信仰音乐的人，来这个国度，都不知道是为了什么~
但是，有些文化的东西，就有点不一样了~

以前，国王和将军，一样在军队
现在国王在家里，将军出征，所以，将军真的是拥有所有的兵权~
麻衣将军是好将领，看重人才，自己的武功也确实卓越

麻衣将军调兵遣将的挖来了很多的天兵天将，天啊~有一个天兵是10级高级兵~ 都让他给召唤来！

将军为了保家卫国，鞠躬尽瘁~
军队里依然有人不守军规~然他厌烦不已~
然后！他就聚集了７个武功高，信得过的士兵，组成了‘麻家军’，　俗称，７仙人
而我，就成了７仙人里的剑兵

哈哈哈哈哈～还可以自夸武功高~
erhem....

好了，醒了
continue fyp~

membrane done, fleed the score

2009-03-15T20:49:00.006+08:00

我的笛膜粘好了，然后谱就全部飞掉了

today, is the worst performance i ever had in my performers life, since secondary school till now,
big big small small all sort of performance,
from raining till night, no light, mud place, no audience, sick condition....
today, is the worst

ok,
today have 2 performance, morning one, afternoon one
player: 7 fairies

morning
830 say gather, i reach at 9am, but i am the 3rd one there *early huh
we drag, the performance also drag till around 1130 am only our turn to play.

in the fucking hot weather, open space, got roof but no fan

and so, my dizi
(lesson 1: dizi have a hole that have to be plaster by a very thin membrane of plant, as it vibrates it to produce pretty sound)
the membrane, is X X , not tore, not broken, but some terrible thing happen in within due to the high temperature i guess
as i can't see it in apparent, i take it, play it...and so,

terrible sound are produced, and i don know why *by the time

song to songs, i am frustrating in embarrassed situation finding out whats wrong with me, or the dizi...

v play 10 song, at around the 8th song, i decided to change the membrane （for 7 song, i am fucking myself..yea...something seems so easy in normal day, seems so impossible and u don;t understand why.. is like u forgot how do math 3+9 =?... and u don know why u don know how)
oh,
then i know is the damage of the membrane....
(after i change it, i am normal again. 3+9 is 12..)

i played the 8th song, 9th song..and 10th song?
strong wind come and bring my score sheet to vacation...

~~(imagine the awkward situation where i am chasing around for the sheets T.T)

--
afternoon session,
maybe is just fated to have 2 performance in a day, this 2 shot day never situation never happen before.
cuz the afternoon session, is the normal me, where besides 3+9, i can do math like algebras and probability, just like the me~

so, it got bac neutral of the negativity

baby conductor said lately i am a little lack of confident in playing...

yea, i am...
1. i got critics from the big conductor saying that my tune is out, sharp or flat, sharp and flat...
there is not certain button or string or valve i can adjust to make it right,
i just have to adjust my lips to make it right... or like 'red cliff' dig the dizi hole (is true)
adjusting the lips...this is just so a variable that cant be totally fix

2. a player from cyber, is great
one day of practice, he came back mlc and play with us... know what, i feel pressure

3. i stop attending instrument lesson
this means that my skill is not under polishing state, it is either sustaining or de-improving
most probably de-improving

4. i didnt much practice

ok,
too much negativity!

smile! 4 beauty from 7 fairies
from left: see tzu西施, gui fei yang杨贵妃,diao can貂蝉, wang zao jun王昭君
(why leh? see tzu wear white is just nice, yang guifei cuz chubby, black is wit so diao chan, and the one that married to northern to sustain the country peace, is wang zao jun, must got pretty smile, yea, thank u~)

3 pretty from 7 fairies
from left: zhao fei yan（赵飞燕）, shu dan ji（苏旦己）, qi fu ren(戚夫人）

haha, getting happier creditting people with history remarkable beauties, but with awful background and motive of existence~

lots more to explain of these character
;D
nex post~

visiting khaled

2009-03-14T16:02:00.006+08:00

i installed e-book software in my psp,
i should have done this long ago, cuz i am liking it
yeah!

i went to see my ex-final year project supervisor, khaled
(he conducted my thesis study last 2 semester, and the final semester, he abandoned us and fleed to another university, Utem)
well, he said although he quit MMU, but having this student loaded on another lecturer is not fair, so he will still guide us...so he offer us that we could still see him..

but since the day i know that he abandoned us, i kinda feel like i am not more concern to him...
i didnt find him but instead, i just went to the new supervisor the faculty assigned for us.

ok, introducing new character. HK , the new supervisor
as for the other of khaled babies, they continues find khaled for supervision.
Accordingly to K3, is because HK ask them to~

HK never ask me to see khaled~
he comment on my task and suggest stuff to me, i feel alright
he have big prob is that he is fucking busy, i'll have email him twice a week and get an appointment after 2 weeks
difficult to approach

as, so, this k3 is same like me, he never put khaled in mind for this while,
and suddenly got stuck in the direction HK pin point him to do~
and so he have no choice but to seek help from khaled~

so, i tagged along
so, hey Utem!

the engineering faculty (i think), in the 6th floor, is khaled office
khaled is in the 'kejuruteraan pembuatan diploma'

~~

well, khaled complain that we are late, (k3 fetch me, not entirely my fault rig?)
and also complain that we are late... to meet him, at week 6 (week 10 to submit)

as for me, ...ok, let me summarize what he said:
1. ok, is good, but slow
meaning is in right direction, accordingly to his understanding of what i told him

2. work harder, faster

3. i am lucky (as i didnt seek his supervision and still manage to be in track? )

comment on k3 is bad
1. he is in critical stage

2. in the wrong direction pin point by HK (he never intended that the subject could developed to the stage where k3 is stuck, he said he is in wrong direction)

3. giving him option
i. let go of 'the thing he is stuck' at, and back to the original problem at our first part...
ii. waive the project, and redo everything and concentrate on 'the thing he is stuck'
(the thing he is stuck is a industrial managment kind of simulation that requires lots of programming)

k3 is lost, he don't know what he want

~~

i developed a structure of what i am doing, and what i will be doing...as a list
but he is not interested in reading un-systemetic materials
he wanted it to be well arrange, like a table of content in my final report to show him
(he never change)

-he didnt want to look at the list
-he didnt much read the questionaire i developed, but he agreed with the questionaire method...
phew~~ that was close

ok, er
who has contact with companies?
i would like some help...:P

不必争做第一名

2009-03-10T16:47:00.003+08:00

近来，身边很多的人都很忙thesis, 很压力~
singapore有人忙不过来，结果涌了一刀给老师后，跳楼自杀
一个朋友就天天和我说要去跳了
一些同学就不值所谓的天天在msn status 倒数~

一个和我一样老师的同学，就逢见到我就告诉我根本什么都没有做，告诉我他有几可怜什么的~
虚伪到不行
人说，看一个人不顺眼，是因为自己的涵养不够~
我根本就鄙视这个人，如果我还当他是好朋友，哈拉哈拉，猪朋狗友一起，都不知道谁比较没有涵养~

最近看着一本书，Win Claybaugh的书（认识吗？根本没有听过）
他说，有一天，他主持一个节目，游戏节目，所有人必须从房间里得一方，到另外一方，
中间会有很多的障碍，当所有的人到达终点后，就结束~

不用猜，一定会有很多人争先恐后，要做第一名~

然后，过后，就分享会，其中一个‘第一名’发表，
他说自己一直以来都很有方向，所以主持人一说要到对面去，他的脑子想得就只有 ‘到对面去’~
如此急着开始，他果然，是第一名，
当他到达终点的时候，往后看，看到许多人玩在一起，互相帮忙，享受着一路，
突然觉得寂寞

是要说第一名是很孤独的，渺小的人类~

当然不是，
作者继续说：也许好多人都得不到第一名，甚至垫背，最后，但是却充分的享受了过程，得到更多的乐趣。
就说啊，人生啊，不是竞赛，不用抢第一，
很多时候，过程更始重要，过程所学到的，遇到的，享受的~~点点滴滴，
有些人就那么的急，急着到终点，却不明白过程

有点像安慰所有的吊车尾，失败根本不必伤心，因为你在享受过程~
但是，却也有点道理，
人生这么样匆匆，每一天，每一个岁月，不要走马看花，好好看，好好学
过了，就过了，到了重点，是不可能回到中间，看看的~
过了20岁，就不能够再回到20~

不必争做第一名

我依然忙着我的论文，方向有点模糊，这个时候是不因该模糊的，心里，很着急
我依然处理着华乐的活动，事态有点混乱，

但是，如果告诉自己不行，就等于催眠自己不行，会死的，
好好走，水到渠成

跑啊！不要站着！

2009-03-04T15:53:00.003+08:00

从来都没有在这个地方post这些东西，
想来都只当这个地方是垃圾桶，埋怨讨厌的多，高兴的少

所以，这一集聚的怨气很重，我今天来冲喜下

七仙女，艾，不是，是七仙人~
表演啊，小小的表演~
在商场，连个舞台都没有，而且价码很可怜，原因是为了搏曝光，宣传4月的演奏会，然后做善事，这个表演使老人院凑款活动的~

太小组了，音响又不好，所以，其实没有演得很好，但是，当作星期日，去玩玩，也还好啦~
喜欢着一些音乐的同学们，就好像依然喜欢以前铜乐队的宝贝们一样

演奏完毕，直接赶场，去打羽球~

然后遇到熟人，他说：你不是玩乐器的咩！？跑来打羽球!?

我说： eern eern, 没有啦，我没有打，我是来教导他们的~~
（语毕，伸一伸舌头，自己都不好意思）

老实说，我还真的是运动的白痴~
不知道是我的演技好，还是他们也是白痴，和我打球的同学们，一直说我不尽力，没有心，

我说：唉！我的程度就是这样了好不好！

他们就是不相信，这些人很讨厌！好像你明明考试０分，结果不好意思给人知道就不说，然后别人就说，你一定是那１００分～酱讨厌！

他们说，我不是打不到，而是我就不喜欢跑动，就只接自己范围里的球，范围以外的，就看着，不追）
我想是习惯，玩篮球（以前，我多数是不玩的），的人，也是说了一样的话！

说：凯文阿！跑啊！不要站着！

2009-03-02T18:03:00.002+08:00

　　D、宅男宅女潜质：★★★★★★

　　症状：依赖网络

　　你是否无法长时间离开电脑、离开网络？

　　在现实中与人交流会让你觉得麻烦，现实的生活让你觉得厌烦和压抑。于是你习惯于在网络生活里寻找乐趣，你会觉得在网上跟人说话、交流要轻松很多。你有时会无论干什么都想上网，但是上网却又并没有特定想要做的。或许你可以一整天对着网络而什么也没有做。网络对你来说逐渐不可取代，它逐渐会成为你逃避现实的一个避风港。

今天玩了这么一个测试，得到一个这么样的答案

就发觉，原来测试，可以很准的，我真得怎么样觉得~我会觉得懒得和人打交道，并不是我不愿意。我可以很喜欢你，喜欢和你说话，但是我会因为懒惰，而保持安静，我只是觉得麻烦~

但是，在网上聊天就不一样了，我觉得自在~ 我可以和人们谈天说地，无话不说，不麻烦~

然后，发现，我有几个朋友，同班同学，我们一班差不多120人啦，其实不多，一起上课4年了，即使不打招呼（多数是会拉），也知道是同班同学~ 然后就有些人，我也不知道什么时候开始，ｍｓｎ里头有了这些人，（同班同学），然后，也不到什么时候开始，我会在ｍｓｎ和他们聊天，不然就在ｆａｃｅｂｏｏｋ一起玩ｐｏｋｅｒ，　ｆａｃｅｂｏｏｋ聊天～

即便我们在网上聊天好像很多话，其实，现实中，我还没和他们说过话（打招呼不算）

然后想想，我希望什么地方都会有网络连接，电话ｇｐｒｓ，ｗｉｆｉ，　ｗｉｒｅｌｅｓｓ　等等，然后去看电脑店，第一个点击的目标就是ｉｎｔｅｒｎｅｔ　ｅｘｐｌｏｒｅｒ，　看看有没有线～开到了，ｃｕｒｓｅｒ　放在ａｄｄｒｅｓｓ　ｂａｒ，　一个ａｄｒｅｓｓ也想不到，根本不知道要去那里～

哈哈哈

是不是我们年轻人的病态？

你们也试试看：click here

不管在忙

2009-02-28T16:40:00.005+08:00

虽然我很忙，嘿嘿
但是，日子还是要过的，而且要过得好好的

我依然会抽出时间，上网玩游戏，去facebook 玩poker,
会让自己无所事事的msn,聊天
去youtube,看上一带堆的video,从好笑得到什么魔术揭秘，日本忍笑大赛，什么都看看~

饭我依然会吃，当然

我会打电话回家，和妈妈聊天说这个星期不回家；
打电话给朋友问问几时去吃饭，

我会在再累的时候不管做什么，都放下，去睡觉

会去看电影，看《幸福万岁》，看这个来得有点迟的贺岁电影，很好看的~

会和朋友去打壁球，squash,才发现自己真的没有运动细胞，才发现自己的肌肉都退化的像老人，
会去jonker,吃laksa, cendol。

说是忙里偷闲实在太过分了，因为我根本是偷懒~
因为我还会玩blogging~

有没有搞错哦~

为了让自己好过，所以今天，晚上，我会去图书馆~

写着这文章的时候，我还是在看youtube,
http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=53685909833&h=-yGZI&u=3k28r
叹为观止~

好忙啊~

2009-02-27T13:03:00.004+08:00

好久没有写文章了~
上一篇还在training, 现在都令一个学期开始加一个月了~

我很忙啊，忙得连我都觉得自己变了

我忙ｆｙｐ，每一个人都在忙，但是我很沮丧的是我的老师不见了，
学校给了我另外一个，是个好老师，但是，方向却调了～
一个月了，我还在寻觅着那一条路～
我担心啊，我担心我现在做的一切，都错方向了～
寻找方向应该是上一部的事了～

忙学业啊，
１。　ｔｒｉｂｏ，摩擦学；　难不难我还不知道，但是，差不多每个星期考试一次，２次ｑｕｉｚ，１个期考，ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔ很多个，还有ｌａｂ
每次听他在上课的时候宣布ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔ的时候，我就勃起～

２。　ｃｏｃｏ，　ｔｈｅａｔｒｅ，戏剧学：听起来容易啊？
ｃｏｃｏ本来就应该很容易的，这个学科，我们一班需要篇排一部戏剧，包括篇剧，导演，演员，布景。。云云，老师分成４部分：ｃｒｅａｔｉｖｅ　ａｒｔ　（ｄｉｒｅｃｔｏｒｓ，ｓｃｒｉｐｔｓ　ｗｒｉｔｅｒ，　ｐｒｏｄｕｃｔｉｏｎ　ｍａｎａｇｅｒ，　ｓｔａｇｅ　ｍａｎａｇｅｒ），ｔａｌｅｎｔｓ（ｃａｓｔ），ｗａｒｄｒｏｂｅ　ａｎｄ　ｍａｋｅｕｐｓ，ｓｅｔｔｉｎｇ　ａｎｄ　ｐｒｏｂｓ．
如果是我，我应该会选择ｃｒｅａｔｉｖｅ　ａｒｔｓ　咯，但是，我够的了～我ｌｏａｄｅｄ　到怀孕的了，
我的考虑已经不是兴趣是哪一个了，而是，哪一个最容易～
结果～明白不过，是ｃａｓｔ

然后？还有华乐～
这才是重点，我忙的原因，就是华乐～华乐有演奏会，４月１８，　
我想，我在华乐那么久，浮浮沉沉，认识了人，风光过，也学了很多，但是就好像以前的铜乐队，我依然不喜欢担戴，什么都不理，只学习，只玩音乐
我这个学期，说不定就毕业了，我突然觉得，我是否应该把学的东西留下～
结果，打了电话给演奏会的主席，告诉他给我一个工作～
结果，我就成了节目组的组长，拉开了我最忙碌的学期序幕

成为组长的忙碌，烦，懊恼的东西太多了～
我不想写，也没人要看

华乐啊，活动是要有人去办，可是，表演才是最重要的阿～
可不能不练习的，练习又是要时间的，
大合奏，小合奏，齐奏
宣传表演。。。
我在欢喜没有玻璃，我可以摆ｓｅｎｉｏｒ架子，指指点点的时候，却，我的ｈｅｉｒ，　后继人（ｊｕｎｉｏｒ），不用功，不珍惜机会，无心想学，不来练习～
天天就告诉我是浪费时间，还说什么什么事不用练的～　开导了他，还是牛皮灯笼

我太忙了，太生气了，我和他的ｄｕｅｔ齐奏，我删除了，我不要演出了～！

学生指挥天天来投诉我说他不来练习，领奏的部分演到一团糟，宣传表演一直退堂说不得空
我就和学生指挥说它也是节目组的人，我给他的工作他一直告诉我说他不会做，我解释很清楚，写了大纲的他，他说不用作的，浪费时间的东西他不会做～

我删除了我们的合奏，不演了！可他说要演，我说：你出独奏啊！
学生指挥后来对我说：要出也是你出，我才不要他出

～～
ｓｐｏｎｓｏｒｓｈｉｐ　组，天天和我要人去找ｓｐｏｎｓｏｒ，我的人连会议都不去的，我怎么能劝导他们和你去找ｓｐｏｎｓｏｒ呢，可我又怎么能够告诉别人，我连自己的组员，都控制不了～
上头天天和我要节目流程，表演什么我都不知道，也不早我的控制下，我怎么能够给你节目流程呢？
ｖｅｎｕｅ的人们告诉我，这个地方订不到，要不了，我换了一个又一个方案，你们也说了一次又一次不可以。

～～
别担心，会好起来的～
我超级讨厌别人安慰我的话～我要列一个名单，以后我成了希特勒，我要将名单里的人～～ＸXXX

我变了，我变得很暴躁，我会胡乱发脾气，我会想杀死某些人~哈哈
过渡期而以啦~
我幻想着假期，幻想着毕业后可以去旅行~ 就是动力了
幻想幻想，然后看到满桌子的fyp,thesis 的文章，我就想哭~

没办法了，我要变超级萨亚人了~

scenarios soldiers!

2008-12-11T18:38:00.007+08:00

soldiers! attention!

foward MARCH!
(left right left right....)

sometimes my working life could be as relax as this~
but these few days, the work in urgent is killing us, A&W got no choice, but to summon for help from other department.
he then summoned another trainee from Utem in QA in process to come final help us
(yeah right, he have no choice, he himself is garbage, he didnt help at all)

when people is busy, Joc even have little 'war' with KLCC

but then, soldiers! aerobic!
(by Shan, not me, i am never that free)

ok, out of topic..
:P
anyway, Shan can make pretty soldiers aerobic:

today, one of the Pakistan worker officially leaving malaysia,
his last day was yesterday, and we did say bye to him, and today he come to the company for document thingy, and so drop by again to say bye,

well, i don't even have a proper conversation with him, just hi, bye, makan makan, sort of thing
but, i do have good impression in him, he is a sincere guy~

go bac to pakistan to marry then never will come back to mintye again~
so, farewell

ok, soldiers,
anyway, soldiers is one of the product call PIN, attach to BSC, nvm, who will understand..
soldiers! say byebye with LOVE!

lastly,

AH!!!

bad things does happen in min

2008-11-27T20:46:00.005+08:00

it wasn't all good happening to me all this while, i have things that i have complication dealing with...

sometimes i am so having bad luck, is simple, but it irritates you..

nah, i am not going to say those things, it is really small tiny things, just like so happening to be the one to explain the faulty that we causes, making the impression that it is MY fault...

and! i don't have chance to talk to 'tony leung'!

and this stupid 38(38 is a malay guy), was absent for 2 days, monday and tuesday..and so i am transfer to take his shift with another senior~
well, then i understand lots of things 38 does not teach me, is all the minor detail that link everything he make me do.. who knows he is either selfish, or merely thinking thats too simple to make me do them.
well, it is alright, i don't mind, he don't have the obligation to teach me

and the senior(nepal), even teach me things from his original department,
although he complain to me he have so much of his work, hoping me to help him with his department thing..:P sorry, i don't want to~ (i didnt actually tell him that, just, i didnt help him)

ok, thats the thing, happening once he return to work yesterday, i transfer back to the final QA, and i face a flaw of the product he is controlling, so i went to him with the product...
i go to his seat, take a seat, and sit down beside him, seeing him doing his work, i do not want to interupt, but i am sure he know i am there...
then he say: buat apa pasal yang 90334 itu tade masuk computer?
i said: huh?
he said: you semalam kerja kat sini kan?
i said: ya.... semalam yang itu belum list dalam computer
he said: yang 80114 itu tade comfirm... (with the so irritating expression)
i said: o...saya tatau la, i ikut aje itu (pointing the nepal senior who leads me yesterday)

(hey, confirm is the thing you do to certify a production 'GO' k, i tried lots of time, but, i make mistakes. some of the produc t requires several process, and espcially the final process, i will not dare to confirm, if i certify wrong, the product will have to scrap and the preceeding process all goes undone, well, luckily everytime my mistake was then realize and re-confirm, so i say to myself: NOT TO COMFIRM IF THE SITUATION ALLOW, AND NOT TO CONFIRM ON FINAL PROCESS REGARDLESS ANY CIRCUMSTANCES!)

then he continue with his work, and i let me sit there waiting with my product...
i then open the reference drawing on his desk, showing very obvious I HAVE QUESTION~
he ignore, doing his job with full power of irritation...
like i am working there, yet all the job un complete, then he will have to do them...

HEY! thats your job, i am a substituting your position as trainee following a senior,
and i am sure all the job is (in my conscious) done when i go back!
fuck you fuck you fuck you!

sitting there stupidly for 10 mins, i left him..
back to final QA and approve that flaw product!
fine! fuck you... i let it go to the market!
if i'll have to be responsible, you will have to be responsible as well!

--
today was better day, as i facing this particular situation where i have to talk to him for something... (i struggle a lot thinking to talk to him or not, i affraid i will kill him),
but well, as i talk to him then, he don't seems anything different, like normal only...
then this baby face (seriously baby face, we crack his detail from other worker: he is only 20, but! already have kids, and he is kido and childish still...), pushing a trolley alike device...
and bang him in purpose....
hahaha, i am smirking... then i burst to laugher when 38 walk off that spot and baby face followed him and bang him again....

HAHAHAHA

QA executive walk pass and 38 shouting to that executive pointing baby face,
executive was busy, he just say: EH! (then gone)
but the EH he shouted, summon that baby face supervisor...
(ops, problems...)
but i observe that baby face wasnt looks funny when he do that banging thing on 38, and 38 don't looks like having fun with him...i think they have some conflict before i appear...
well, fighting is good, kill 38....

scenarios min

2008-11-25T22:46:00.004+08:00

:

the bear bear group of maintenance looks like bear....
EACH everyone of them!
this is killer bear!
then got koala, Owl bear(looks like owl + bear), 38 bear( who likes to laugh without reason),

this one particular bear, when we QA spotted some problem with the product, and the cause is the machine operater reluctance, then he will ask us to : HANTAM DIA! KASI INI(hand me a metal), HANTEM DIA!

--
i eating sweet while walking, then i choke~ the mint penetrated into my nose and throat, i cannot stop coughing....
then red riding hood come pass and saw me
: SAKIT ah?

....
i cannot talk, i can only shake my head.......

--
CSC (orna steel) friend spending most of their time with engineers, with local, with taiwanese, chinese.... all educated people..
while we mintye babies, we spending most of our time with local malays, and foreigners~

no no, i am not complaining...
just that, i will have to say these foreigner we work with, wasnt bad and evil junk like what we see in the news paper, killing, robbing and raping...
can't deny they are less educated, knowing not much, we even have problem communicating to each other, they are rough, but in some sense, they are innocent...(dan sun)

there few Nepal worker who teach me things, vietnam worker teach me things, nepal store keeper telling us stuff.....
and ofcourse, there are few insane being around..

this particular special cisin uncle we address him as...he is... typical like insane chain kiler, like those killer who kill for no reason, not even for own satisfaction....
(while lining up for food in the canteen, he will walk pass us and push us away....,
he requesting a new mask from the supervisor, then the supervisor was handling something else, so he say: tunggu sekejap...
he said: sekarang tak boleh ah...
supervisor: tunggu la!

and surprisingly, although we have snake king, king of kings A&W, (a local malay, our supervisor), and everything we know as malay is always lazy... (ISA please be blind while seeing this), there are still few malay we work with, very keen and serious, hardworking on the job he is doing..
salute~!

working names

2008-11-09T13:16:00.004+08:00

我的工作不错的老实说，想想吧，有人的工作得用脑子，思考然后想出一些方案，方法，之类的，像萍2，他就需要做presentation,research 之类的；有的人的工作每天要穿得美美然后去推销，当然很自然的吃喝玩乐都可以claim公司的，但时可不能没有成绩的，天天要对各种各样的人嘻皮笑脸，客户为先的消遣人；不然就像伟嘉那样，天天就被冷落，要他们好好的读熟各种各样的规则之类的，就天天一直读，然后很想睡觉，什么也做不了，当然，我都选择了他们糟糕的方面来说，好的一面他们自己在享受，我要嘛听了，也不会很明白~

所以啊，我的工作时脑子不用太多，不过身体就要能操一点了，

一直要走动，虽然没有什么搬搬抬抬，但是~~我也不明白，就会很热，然后要这边那边的腾来腾去，像昨天酱，一大堆的工作，量了这个那个，有这个那个~

哈哈，工作啦，文字我也写不出什么~

总之！要我选择的话，我想开始也许会选择别的容易（看起来容易）的工吧，但是工作了就明白，身体累了最多不是休息多一点，至少我不用放工回到家里，担心明天怎么办，担心后天的presentation,担心下个星期的sales quota,

但是不代表放工回到去我就能relax,我也有要担心的东西，但是至少不是和工作有关的~这就够了

但是今天我那个store 的同学没有来，然后另外一个就被叫去office做东西，所以我就被差遣去顶替他们两个人在store的岗位，（当然不是只有我一个人），但是呢，今天的store根本就没有东西做，今天没有什么出货进货的，所以我就真的，很无聊~

然后我去回我的部门，QA in process, 去和那个38 讲话，他明明很得空的，但是我说：得空哦？他又说没有得空，但是整个人就摊在那边，什么都没有做~白痴

介绍一下我们的工作人物：

1． 38 :我工作是跟随他的，他做这个有9年的了，虽然教育程度不高，但是对于公司的运作，能跟他比的人，我看也只有他头上的那几个supervisor了，但是就由于教育程度不高，英文不太明白，看不懂，所以升不上去了~为什么38 ？因为他真得很38，他是一个男人，但是却像aunty酱，很喜欢去撩人，惹人，但是从我的眼里大家都还能接受的，很多人走过也很习惯性的去惹他。他很怕肮脏，有些人就会故意肮脏的时候他碰它，然后他就会捉狂，哈哈~

2． A&W, a.k.a 007: 这个男人是我们QA的第2个头头，他走路很像A&W的熊，所以我们就叫他A&W。007 又为何？007 是license to kill…. 我们的007 时license to kill TIME.

我们至今也不太明白他的工作范围是什么，就这边那边，一点一点的，在work shop 里游来游去，根本就好像有执照的在杀时间~

3．小红帽: 外劳来的，什么国家我不知道啦，但是他的语言我是不明白的，而且他很白，有点像华人，所以我不知道。他剃了个光头，然后天天带着红色的鸭舌帽~

（我的同学见到他的时候，真的叫他小红帽的，他也会回应的，因为他根本不明白啊，可是不明白又回应？）

4．梁朝伟 :很帅的华人，白白的，高高瘦瘦的，很是好看的，有这么一天我和我的同学说他是整个工厂里面最帅的了，然后过后他迎面走来，和我们碰了个对面，然后我们就礼貌的微笑啊，他自然也会笑回给我们拉，然后我的同学就说，笑起来像梁朝伟，诚恳得来，又有点傻~哈哈

5．任达华: 这个是外劳，黑人，但是不是印度那种黑，是泰国那种黑，是Nepal的人，然后就把头发染成了金色，然后袖子就会天天折到手臂至上，然后穿紧身裤，塞衣服，总之，看看任达华你就明白的了~

6． Crystal: 回想indiana jones 里的crystal skull, 一个样子来的

7．医生: 外劳，有点老，但是鼻梁上架着的眼镜，不高不低，指指点点，超级像印度人医生的，第一次我和同学们说起，我说：你知道有一个人好像医生的吗？他们两人就知道我说的是睡了~

8． Porn star: 这个有点壮的Nepal 工人，没什么，就纯粹这么样觉得。

9． Killer uncle: 这个人平时真的就普通，没什么的，但是到了快放工的半个小时，他就开始了他杀手生涯，杀时间。其实要到放工的时间，杀时间是每个人的工作，所以纯粹普通得像我们这样的杀，根本拿不到这个名号，他会上fork lift, start engine, 然后驾着车子，然后一圈又一圈的环绕整个工厂，间中会搬搬抬抬拉，会把空桶叠在一起，不然就拿废铁的铁桶去倒掉，然后就一直在绕圈子，绕道尽头，没有路的死路，就会gostan, 然后再来~

就那么一天我们也在聊天杀时间，看他这样绕圈子，我们真的笑到不能停。

10． Bear bear 群: 一群很像熊的technician, 他们的工作基本是换mould, 不然就修理机器，他们有大概5个人，5 个人，都是胖胖的，但是超级像熊的！

哈哈，今天我见到两个，迎面走来，我心里想：杀人熊。。。

然后后面还有一个，我心里想：疯熊~

脑子里满是他们张牙舞爪的样子，然后捉起身边的machine operator，吃掉~

休息的时候，从镜子可以看到technician area, 看到眼睛熊~

11． Baby face 群: 有些外劳，整30的了，看起来还好象20，大我们没几岁的样子，其实他们已经有孩子的了~有一个还把头发染成金色，我和同学说，其实他们连星期日都做工，8 到530，ot 不算，他们到底把头发染了给谁看勒？

有两个baby face 的，一个是越南仔，一个是nepal 仔，也是QA 的，我有问题也会问他们的，两个人都是好人，越南仔还会一点点的话语。Baby face Nepal 仔那一天问我，有女朋友没有，用着他那混了不知道什么腔调的英文，我听了半天才明白他的问题，我说，没有，但是我结婚了~（我很认真地告诉他），他点头好像恍然大悟似的，好像真的相信勒！

我只好说，没有拉~没有结婚也没有女朋友~

然后38插嘴问我他问我什么，我说他问我结婚了没有，38 直接骂他：baru berapa tahun, Tanya orang kahwin belum, beru student la, bodoh~

其实nepal 人根本就听不懂他在叫什么~

食堂的aunty也是的，很喜欢用国文对着外劳们乱叫，哈哈，我觉得那些外劳是给他骂上瘾了，明明知道要排队的，明明知道食物要好好拿，明知道不可以一直把杯啊，食物啊，对在他的面前1cm,然后问多少钱，就偏偏的要给那aunty在大叫！而且叫的是国语。

他其实没有真的生气，就很懊恼~到我们的时候，他总会对我们好声好气，然后看到我们笑那些外劳的胡闹，他的大叫，他就会说，他们很teruk, 说有的做很久的了，还是teruk！

然后我们就会哈哈大笑~

12．魔王: 既是老板拉，最大的~他的工作是什么我不知道啦~ 虽然他对我们说话也是好来好去的，但是所用工人都很怕他的，所以我对他也回避比较好。

今天同学在office里做工，然后告诉我，不知道为什么来找他的工人，好像都是来讨骂的，每一个进去都给他骂的，但是好像只是去问东西而已~

有这么一次，食堂里，自然是很喧哗的阿，然后就有工人好像是在埋怨什么的，他刚刚好听到，就大叫：有什么问题去跟你的supervisor说，叫他来告诉我，不要一直在念！

然后全场冷了好久，然后那个给那骂的人就吃东西啊，魔王也坐在他的附近，对面，抽着烟的还没训话完，我和同学说，那个人应该吃什么都没有味道，吃作都背脊骨落。

我的工钱rm260, 6天一个星期，连星期六也是全天~

他算工钱的方法更是刻薄，即使说，260 是maximum, 如果你一天没有来的话，而那个月又30天，就260 除30，就是你一天的工钱，（8.66）,不是一天rm10哦，不是~

然后一天没有来，就扣8.66

就是说，260 是最多，就只可以扣，不可能加的~

十月我们做4 天而已，但是也有粮出，我们去office 领pay slip 的时候，接待我们的是一个看起来像为人母亲的善良女人，我就撒娇的在装哭，呜呜呜呜~~这么少钱，我都不够吃~怎么办~~

哈哈，他就在笑说，吃少一点拉~吃面包就好了

好幽默的女人，然后我去上班的时候，放车放太过出了，他说，你要改装你的车哦？下午很多巴士经过的~放在前面那里啦！就走了。好潇洒~

说回我的工钱，260，很刻薄吧?

但是想想，其实最终我们的目的是学习，我们不是来为公司赚钱的，所以我们根本就不值员工的酬劳~

这个价钱也好像在告诉我们，我们是可以犯错的，因为我们在学习，我们不是来帮公司赚钱的，

我们可以吃蛇，在我们把工作做完的时候，我们可以做自己的东西，因为我学习到了，没有别的东西可以学的时段，我没有必要在一直重复的做一样东西，或者什么的，因为那是学习范围以外的了，只要学习态度好，我们就算尽责了，

我们依然要思考怎样做才是对公司好，因为那也是我们要学习的，

总之，要有一个mindset, 我们不是员工，我们是来学习的~

其实我的工作也不错的～虽然会很吵很吵，那个第一个星期的时候，我既是放工了回了，听到所有的东西都觉得很吵，音乐啊，说话阿，觉得很烦！

我还以为我不能在欣赏音乐了～坏了个耳朵，　但是好像习惯了。

虽然会很热，热到我的汗水从头上一直流，然后流到下巴，我弯腰的时候，就滴在地上，

虽然有时会很忙，有时就什么也没有得做～这是一个技巧，有东西做的时候，慢慢做，太过快了，等下你无所事事的时候，就那么刚巧老板走过，他过来骂你你还可以说所有都做完了，他走过，然后心里想，这个员工要不得，就走了，你还真的会想哭～但是做到太慢也很糟糕啊，别人赶着要得了，你还慢慢，别人就会来催的了。

但是，是工作啊

我都可以忍受，接受，只是有时醒来，真的希望可以在睡多一点～

（今天，我们的ＱＡ头头，说我们以后的星期六，做到5pm 就好了，是好消息吗？如果说星期六我们不用来了，我还真的会去拜拜说谢谢观音菩萨）

i love sleeping beauty

language in work

2008-11-06T18:07:00.003+08:00

human is the only species of organism with verbal language, and varies with location and races, but human have most conflict and complex in understanding each other...
maybe this indicates that language doesn't really help in connecting people..

in our syllabus of study, we learn that making bahasa malaysia our national language is to 'memupuk perpaduan antara kaum', and from the very beginning before our independent day till now, the language class had been implemented in the syllabus for almost 50 years, and the result shows that, 'perpaduan' of races in malaysia just really do not improve much, ~
again, do language actually help in connecting?

working for almost 2 weeks now, in between malays, nepal, bangladesh, china and XX(unknown places), ofcuz also locals, in the workplace, the national political issues do not have any effects, and the language plays small role.
we barely understand each other, the communication is build basically on 'simple vocab'(eg: OK? CAN? CANNOT? WHY? HOW? ), even talking to local malay, seriously, i don't really get them either,
but to say, i feel this simple way of communication link people much better than using fantastic bombastic pretty literature words or sentences,

i see local chinese speaking of language he barely understand and fool around with nepal worker, i bet the nepal worker don't understand at all, but they can tease and play together,
i see the canteen aunty shouting shouting the worker to line up, paying the accurate amount, stop pushing, take the food nicely in pure BM, and i truely believe that those worker understand none word from the sentences~

communication doesn't lies just on language, is people we are, we same species...
dog dont have to learn dog language to make all dog species understand them, just like any other animals, why human can't?
use feeling, observation(see), listen(the tone), the situation to understand each other.

language suppose to help us understand each other, why make it an obstacles on people bond? sometimes we are confuse with things we observe, or we simply don't see the point, and the language will be very helpful in understanding, but then this is the time we chose keep silent...
(shy? don't feel like speaking it out?)

some tips:

working sucks

2008-10-30T20:08:00.002+08:00

working life sucks~

i am working in QA, means quality assurance or more commonly quality control.
while 2 of my mmu mate plays QA in the store, i along play QA in 'in process'
means, i've to check the product before the production starts, once QA said: ok, go!
then the production starts, then from time to time during the production, QA got to check the product,once got prob, stop the production, and at the ending, certify the product once more time, and sent to the store.

and for my mmu mate, before the product goes to the customers, the product will be bring out from the store, and there is their job to ensure the product is checked again.
so basically, they have easier life.

good thing is, my supervisor was keen to teach me things, and the bad thing is, he is very lazy as well, he like to chit chatting with people there...

the good thing is, for certain time, i don really have things to do, even my supervisor don have things to do, the bad thing is, you still have to looks busy regardless how free you are.

the good thing is, we have 3 breaks a day, morning tea, lunch and afternoon tea(15mins only thou), the bad thing is, you got to work on saturday full time.
(and the food is limited, you walk slower, you eat an egg and rice for lunch)

some worker is very kind, yet some...i don know, so far none do bad things to us.
the boss, higher authority people is kind to us too, the boss said he is currently busy with something, after his busy period done, he might led us thru~
follow him, a great lights for 3 months of darkess...

放假结束~开工前几天

2008-10-28T06:58:00.003+08:00

星期六，今天本来是为了庆祝phing, 和kah2，的生日而约了孩子们一起吃午餐的~

但是星期五晚上的时候，在我通知phing2隔天的行程的时候，他突然很吃惊的说：‘不是星期天吗？你不是说星期天吗？明天都不是我的生日~~~

我星期六傍晚我就启程出发到表姨的家了，他的儿子娶老婆~

星期六那天去到，我们去表姨的家,house warming party,隔天才是迎亲的日子~

星期六的午餐，说是为了phing2，kah2, 的生日而有的午餐，虽然phing2不能来了，他说他还在kl,但是life goes on~,午餐就继续好了，我还真的很想孩子们呢，哈哈，离婚了，孩子的抚养权给我了~

我在书局里逛逛，我好想读的书很多，但是，我很担心书骗我，我不要读假的*（因为我读的是历史书，如过读的是小说，自然明白是假的，无所谓，读历史又读假的，好像很苯~好像日本人读的历史是假的，根本就是白读，不要读更好）

我不知道吃什么，结果去越南餐厅吃饭~2儿子负责点菜，因为我什么都吃，容天下,然后他比较择食，所以他决定好了~

然后3儿子就来了，然后~~就吃饭~

过后就闹来闹去，给了钱就闲逛，然后回的时候也闹了一阵

小点：

1． 3儿子驾车很不小心的，会因为拾水瓶去撞别人的车，然后退车也去撞别人的车头。

2．回的时候，我让3儿子载我去我的车，（当天驾myvi, accord送去医院了）

3．到我的车了，我就载2儿子回到建筑的门口，他要等‘不是我’的那个爸爸，我大哥？（不是，我只有一个大哥，他在banting，但是他不知道他是我大哥）

回到家的时候，发觉，当天的那顿饭，很温馨，很舒服~我们真的应该常常这样吃饭~

还有，我们是东方的人们，吃饭吃饭，说的真的是吃饭，真的可以联络感情，不是secret resipe, Mcd, kfc~

其实我的朋友，中学的，不要算乐队的，还真的。。。。我想到的只有一个~

不过是我的错，因为我太骄傲了。

朋友要是变质了，还是我顾不来的，我干脆就丢掉了，有着朋友却不关心，不理不睬，又等于没有，不如没有~ （我是太偏激了，是不对的，桥正着）

我希望可以带孩子们来马六甲玩玩，因为这个学期是industrial training, 希望可以轻松一点的，因为没有考试，虽然要上班，却不用担心assignment deadline, project, course work 等等，

但是！我还觉得我会很忙得呢~我有concert的proposal, 6/11 dead line, (一切演奏会的工作拉)，

我的fyp, 毕业论文，我的笛子课，（除了上课，还要去栽培新苗），还有各种各样拉~

日子要过得好好的，要充实，要满足~

安排好好，可以的

艾！明天就上班了！嘿嘿，有点期待，又有点害怕~

some tips:

days in between final exam, another relax day

2008-10-15T02:18:00.007+08:00

Re-arrange my blog as seen, my blog moderator Sue, is broken…sigh~she is so free to burn out series but not free at all to re arrange my blog, or our blog~

Today is another relax day, the test is 4 days from now, and I just printed out all the notes~, the scary part is, I am not nervous at all~

Elements of the day:

1. 中孝介(Atari Kousuke), is my day~the whole day, is with his song, simply irresistible, totally mesmerize.

2. Sushi day, I don’t know sushi member day is applicable domestically in whole Malaysia or not, but I do know that in Malacca, this week is member week. I don’t have to explain what is sushi day I guess. We went at lunch hour, but luckily we line up for about 7mins only.

a new Kingston 4G pendrive. that silver one is my old pendrive, 512MB, but due to aging(i think), it degraded become 42MB, i cannot even put an music album in it, i wonder what can i do with it. i used to have another black 1G pendrive, but MIA it is. (pendrive also goes MIA). and so, obviously, the purple one is my new pendrive.

(oh, that dragon ball that link both the old and new is something i brought from HongKong N years ago, and that black dust thing, is....a anime character, something from my school anime fair)

a movie...
pathetic a little, as that hero cannot have sex with the one he like because having high heart beat rate will transform him into hulk, remind me of small ville, clark do not want to have sex with Lana because he think he is too powerful~ lately all the heroic movie focus more on the personal side behind the mask, which is pathetic, and nice to watch~

(maybe one day your son growing up and tell you, hey dad, i am superman, or i am incredible hulk, tell him: then you will not beable to have sex~.....hahaha, skip this)

a news~ 台湾选秀冠军林宥嘉惊人相似日本AV男优

(http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4cb0f0bd0100atkk.html)

saying yoga resembles a AV porn star from Japan~ well, honestly,i tried to find out what AV is that, but too bad, i couldn't

6. writing this blog~and recreate all the layout, hope you people like it, and do leave comment to let me know someone read the blog~ is too bad that i couldn't publish this page in msn, in friendster, because i do write bad about peoples~ when i hate someone, i won't bother if he know i hate him, but it is totally not necessary to let him:ｉ　ｈａｔｅ　ｙｏｕ

lastly, some tips for raising a baby:

放半天

2008-10-14T00:35:00.002+08:00

今天考第三张,law, 相当的难，还好有tips,不然真的不知道怎么办~

下一张是这个星期六，还有四天，所以今天下午考完了，就放自己半天的假~

所以很悠闲~

然后去买了

Mp3-fm transmitter, 想要很久了，因为我的车子啊，cd player坏掉了，除了电台，就什么歌也听不了，今天终于去买了，很快乐~

晚餐的时候拿来播歌，播出自己的歌的时候，我竟然觉得很兴奋~车子都驾不好了，车灯都不会开~哈哈~

然后晚参加车去jusco McD 吃~逛一下书局，虽然没有钱买书，但是马六甲的书局那么的渺小，我也没要买什么书~

闲逛，果然舒服~

回到自己的窝，看了一部台湾红得紫的电影《海角七号》，不错的电影，托了音乐的福~

没有音乐，这部电影我还真地看不完~哈哈，但是电影和音乐是互相配合的，谁托了谁的福都好啦，反正整体来说是不错的，尤其有几首歌曲，好好

看完了电影就不停的搜索有关的歌曲，范逸臣的好歌喉我早就很喜欢的了，然后还发觉另外一个日本的歌手，‘中孝介’他的唱腔很特别，然后唱的歌也很好听～

我下了几首他的歌，好动听啊～天啊~~ 好好听，我想明天我如果再去逛书局，我会去看看有没有他的专辑。

音乐，多么的庆幸自己喜欢音乐，明白音乐，会玩音乐，多莫美妙的东西啊~

今天悠闲，早上看不三不四的小说，考试后，买了想要得，逛街，听歌，下载歌曲，看电影，然后听歌～

今天不错～

（傻了你，想问我考试怎么样～煞风景）

During exam

2008-10-12T01:16:00.003+08:00

Eread~

this is the newly installed software in my computer, i had come across this lots of time which i am searching for books to read online, but i am so lazy to install something and try it out~
so i usually read those words displayed in the page, but those material is running out, and so limited....

as said, i spent the whole night fixing this thing, searching the software, learning it, getting book and fit on it...
liking it, the feelings is like... baidu.com, or sogou.com~where we get to listen to the song we want after downloading it, if you really like the album only you go and buy them with cash...
same here, now i can read garbage book that i will never want to spent a cent on, like pornographic book, and how to make you looks best in your cloths, gossip of stars, healthy food guide~
most of it, i read half way and delete~ doesnt cause harm, cuz it is free~
oh, love it

and so, i use this to kill a day during my exam period~

today we went to library as usual at 9am, but today is worst than yesterday, i mean the energy level.. i slept early yesterday but the energy don seems to boost up or restore~~
(i hold on a notes and walk out to a garden near by the library, sitting at the table there, oh, then i fall a sleep there wer~)

after lunch, i go back and sleep puas puas! sleep until 6pm, then wake up for dinner then read novel until the mid night and plus2!
so, today is relax day, maybe it can help to relax the tense and help to boost up energy for tomorrow catching up~

day after tomorrow, i wil face another final paper, the LAW~
(know what, hosting pornographic, posting pornographic online is offense, but accessing them is not..... and malaysia is seriously lack of lots of act in cyber law...easy to prosecute , but hard for conviction, besides, downloading porn is not offending copyright law(same applies to song and videos), but circulating it, is offend (circulating it, duplicate it, publish, reproduce all offending)
...
so, to access to porn, download them, keep it to yourself...to stay innocent~

hahaha, weird~

eagle eye

2008-10-08T18:23:00.005+08:00

'Hidup Pak Lah' dan 'Pak Lah presiden, Najib timbalan'

Prime Minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi has decided not to defend his Umno president post and will quit in March next year when the ruling party meets at its annual general assembly.
'from malaysiakini.com'

so sad...
i like him to be pm, because.... nah, isa food is dog food accordingly to teresa, ops...too much?
arh!! no freedom of speech, i cannot write these issues...

well, nvm,
today i had my 2nd paper, IM, fucking hard....it is complicated.
this IM(industrial management consist of 7 chapter of econ, and 6 chapter of management), means calculation 7 chap, 6 chap memorizing, and as FET trend, no tips are provided.
is killing me.

normally we have either memorizing subject or calculation subject and this one is combination of both...
and the paper is hard!
we then met the lecturer after the exam then he is so happy, and ask us: how is it?
one second before we met him, all of us is complaining he is stupid and scolding all the way and once met him, all stun...
aiseh, i said: soooooooo hard
then so happily replied: no la~~ (walk away)

then i ask my fellow friend: eh, now a lot to complain one meh? why speechless just now?

i had 2 paper in a row and i am so exhausted, and a little excited...
my nex paper is next week, thou doens't means i can relax, but one day pit stop break is really reasonable ....right?

so, we went to watch movie, 'eagle eyes'

the movie is alright, and if not talk bout logic...a movie worth watching in cinema
and! i seriously liking

Michelle Monaghan

she is pretty, and she looks mature....
ya right, i like lady with some maturity...she reminds me of sara...oh sara...

reading her biography, she play a role in mr. and mrs smith, suddenly i feel like watching it again, and i love angelina...(my frens simply hate her)

i don't like sub for no reason

2008-10-04T17:48:00.002+08:00

is exam period, i stay in the house since i came back on wednesday...
because SUB is not around, i happy using the living room as my study room.

aj can come out and we can chat in the living room, the light is bright, the ventilation is good...

but when he came back, he will walk in and out, the view is horrible, i hate seeing him...
(note: without reason, honestly, he didnt do anything bad that really pissed me...i just simply don't like to see him)

well, i am childish i guess

since he is back, i close all my windows and my door, in constraint room, pressure will strike...
well, i guess, tonight is the return of the library day...

quote: 要好好活着，因为我们会死很久很久
(live well, cause we will die for a very long time)

2008-09-19T00:32:00.002+08:00

Recall a scenario:
Someone used to complain to me, when she becomes a director of a event, then friends start to approach her for post…

I think I had become the one to ask for post…i almost hate myself

There is so many dizi player in the society(including the newbies), I always hope that we can play together, to fond the bond, the junior and senior bond. I tried to fond the bond during practice, but the time is far too limited to know each other name, founding a bond is too far.
I was thinking that maybe we work out in a event for a play, a bond can be found.

(What for the bond, is for the purpose so that the senior experience will pass down to the junior, the knowledge, the feelings, inheritance…)
If I were to make changes to the society learning culture, I will really hope to do this.

But to make changes, to do things, and to demand for things, I must have status, identity.名不正，则言不顺
Imagine if you are no one but stand up and start to tell the Erhu player not to play while the conductor is talking, ask the Yangqing player to play louder…
But if you are somebody, you can say so.

I am graduating soon, expected graduate. Even I cannot graduate; I will consider myself as graduate and will not join any activities.
I learn dizi, I learn people, I understand a lot of thing, I get to perform as a Chinese orchestra player, I get to perform solo, I know big brother….because of this COS, and I devote almost nothing at all.

Upon my graduation, knowing that time is really limited, i want to leave something for the society, something that I cannot bring away, something to share, something I learn here, inherit to the coming generation.
But, again, identity is important.

As I know that my friend is the director of the concert event, I sms him and congrats him, and tell him let me be the vice president…
:P shock him to died, he call me immediately and apologize say he can’t, that post is already taken, and recommend me to attend interview for WC.
I said I was joking, I never want to be vice president, if I ever want any high post, I had already involve myself at the previous concert, I just want to contribute whatever I know to the society before I graduate, something like advisor or someone big, as I am final year, I am very busy, I cannot promise anything, but I will comment.

He said he might be able to put me in the advisor team, I like it. But I ask him do confirm with me before he do any decisions.

Today during practice for tomorrow COS 5th anniversary, he came and tell me he put me as program division director.
I shock!

I said: what? Director? director need to do work de leh! i don’t want!我才不要！
He then laughing and asks why….

I then said: I tot I am going to become advisor?

He said：advisor team is actually does not exist, exist in advisor is something name only…nothing in formal.

I said: har, then who else categorize there?

He said: like kweefeng ah…..(the previous president of COS)

I said：ah, now is because I am not qualify lah?

Then playing around with another dizi player…
Later get to know there are only 5 divisions, the marketing, sponsorship, program, arts, and technical.

Well, art is more of what I am capable of, but I play that role on my secondary band concert,
And as my ambition to change thing cannot be fulfill in that division.

I am deep thoughts, thinking my capability, and availability.

Then I said him: I didn’t attend the interview, and you just put me in position as big as such, no one objects?

He said: you are so senior…no one say no…

I said: means someone might not be agree, just can’t say?
He laughs again…

COS always laugh with un-funny jokes, I don’t understand why, that’s why I cannot mix so close with all of them.

He ask: then you want be the assistant?

I said: don want, assistant is for the director to assign around, if I want, I sure want to be director, more free…

He: ……（gek sei him）

Frankly, during my fantasy of becoming advisor, I am thinking of how to do this and that..
Especially about program, I am thinking that we should focus on classical ancient music, having the idea of putting some western music elements into the music. Previous concert i see our concert master play Erhu duet with piano, and I was thinking maybe dizi can co-play with cello, or with violin, mix in western instrument like trumpet, saxophone and so on.
I might not be the concert master to determine what should be play, but as the program division leader, I can comment that I wish to put in program like that right?
Besides, dancing, wushu, or exhibition of arts, lucky draw that involve the audience to come up the stage to feel the feeling of playing in the orchestra, or have a touch and try the instrument during the break period…I have ideas like that, is all categorize in program.

In short, I feel program division is very important to determine a concert is successful or not.
This is something very apparent, something people wants in paying the concert ticket.
You can get lots of marketing, making people go, do lots of sponsorship work and get lots of profits, but if the program is boring and terrible, people will only complain, who cares how the backdrop looks like, who cares how much marketing and sponsorship work you did…is the program that matter.
This makes program leader very important.

I chicken a little

I should give it a shot…
I remember I struggle when I take the director job in convo.
I will like it….

Ah~~ but that was such a small event, already cost me so much time, and this event is big~~T.T

ryan birthday, motivation to compose a song

2008-09-17T02:09:00.003+08:00

Today me and Emily skipped khaled tutorial session, for the 1^st time for the semester, with no concrete reason, just want to have lunch with the tutorial slot.

Ryan has his birthday party today. (short p/s: ryan is my mechanical class mate, my height, handsome(can say my class no.1), friendly and nice, and rich, but spotted him smoking once)

Accordingly, his birthday is this Friday, he held his party today because tomorrow is Wednesday (no class day)

We attended his birthday last year+house warming party (his birthday present from his parent is a house, what a dream, I don’t even have a car)

And before we went to his party this evening, I went to his friendster and view the last year picture and have a glimpse what I wore last year, in case I wear back the same thing…

Make me feel, wow, already one year~

But this year party is quite boring and boring. The food is insufficient, the drinks is insufficient, no ice, sarsi too sweet, no chairs, no fan, I am just there so hot, eat some mee then 2 cups of drink, then got nothing to do, hot and bored.

But the entertaining part is, ryan is a singer, and some of his friend is also very good singer, they take turns singing… I love that

But ofcuz, one of his fren who not very good in singing also contribute, to make me feel worst.

Actually I am waiting for the cake ceremonial to come, so that we can leave after that.

But after I open the refrigerator and realize there is no cake, die la, nothing can serve a indication ‘you can leave’.

People bored with outside chatting rubbish activity (I didn’t join, I don like to join precisely, we sit in the house, in the corner without fan but luckily with chairs, sweating watching people singing ktv), then they come in to the house and singing become some sort of punishment.

People are push to the mic and force to sing.

The people who sing feel awful, and ofcuz, the quality of singing also terrible…. I don’t get the point why so.

Lately groups of people I know keep talking picture like graduating season, is a very mixed feelings.

Is the feelings of fear of cannot get to graduate as expected and some eager to graduate immediately.

I just attending a convocation, graduation have to wait for another 2 semester, start counting after I pass all my subject for this semester.

Remember ‘coffee prince’ the korea series, I didn’t mean to talk bout the dead one, I talking about the guy who compose song.

He have the composing room, where the keyboard, computer, sound system all link and connected?

I watch another set of these devices of composing in another movie, and I really want a set of those things.

But thinking that I might not figure out how to use them even I have them, I thinking to attend song composing course.

I want to attend song composing course, I have inspiration, got feel that I will compose lots of beautiful song, just like have the feel that I could paint pretty painting.

Just pass, mid autumn festival, I love lantern.

fyp presentation

2008-09-12T01:06:00.002+08:00

'you had presented so much about kaizen implementation, refer to your title, is kaizen in manufacturing sector, is your presentation on kaizen implementation regarding to manufacturing all in general?'

sim ask

'errrrr' khaimun

'what is the unique of kaizen in manufacturing, can kaizen be implement in service sector?' sim ask

'errrrrrrr....' khaimun

'Mr. Sim is trying to ask, whether the kaizen is applicable in service sector or not' khaled said

' errrrr?????' khaimun
'you know what is service sector, like hotel? can kaizen be implement in hotel?' khaled said

'err, i think so...' khaimun

'so? what is the unique of kaizen in manufacturing and in service sector?' sim ask(again)

'i am not sure, i don know' khaimun

adapted from my fyp presentation, sim is my moderator and khaled is my supervisor
after this service sector, sim ask me something very technical and khaled immediately answer that before i can response..

'thats what he going to do in part 2, this one i can answer' khaled answered

is like primary school teacher ask question and everyone fighting to answer...
:P
so touching, he answer the question in behalf of me, scare me answer wrongly huh...
oh, khaled have his nice side also..

khaled shows full support along my presentation, while i look at sim keep doing his remarks writing and smirk with me, omg, i feel like stop presenting already
(note: i have some history with him, i fake the attendance and absent, then i sent email ask him about something he teach in the class in the particular lesson i absent but theoretically present, then he caught me, then he hate me i guess)
but khaled keep saying, good, good, proceed, proceed, and accordingly to my audience, some of my part he feel so proud of and have the 'see, my student' look, to sim..

his support make me feel so confident~
good side of khaled, i see it today

after me is another 4 of this student, he defended all of us...
he either re-explain sim question, or discuss it with sim, or say: ANY MORE QUESTION, use that fierce look looking at sim, then sim will say, no...
then he immediately clap and say next...

hehe,
to repay his love, i decided to have a good evening after the presentation, i watch few other presentation, and at night went to play dizi, 1st time, introduce myself to my dizi junior,
and help the monitor consult each of every of the junior and comment, make them improve...
and! the point is, i decided NOT to do his assignment where i have to submit tml...
if he love us, then should understand that our load is too heavy...:P
i need a break, and hey, is mid autumn festival~

people cheer, look up to the sky, and say, wah~ beautiful moon

'happy mid autumn fest to everyone'
(i sent cards to everyone, i don get any thank you sms, i guess the post man in ramadhan had throw all my letter to the drain~)

charmed, tml presentation

2008-09-10T19:15:00.002+08:00

today i watch 4 presentation, since morning...
some of it is electronics, software presentation(went to watch the presentation just to give face to the presenter, totally not interested in their topic), and i don understand what they say.
what to do, i am a mechanical people.

we are required to watch at least 2 more presentation besides our own presentation...
but i simply watch for fun, and to give face.

tomorrow is my own presentation,
I watch charmed lately, and i almost cried...
it leads me back to memories, i almost forgot them, is beautiful feelings.
i cast a good luck charm just like used to cast them, i almost forgot what i used to do due to the busy and stress of life...

the pressure life is killing the fun part of me...
i should always remember who i am...

well, for very long i never have dreams, and this afternoon, i have beautiful dream.
i feel great, dream is really important in my life...

i don know, thank you

pre-fyp presentation+COS rely

2008-09-09T20:04:00.002+08:00

too long no update blog, today is 9.9.09 nice date.

is not that i have no life to update as blog, just...it is either too bored to talk about, or too secretive to talk about(sue, you know what i mean), or too similar(something like khaled), or, i am simply too lazy

tml all the fyp presentation will starts, my date is day after tml~
khaled see my slides yesterday on monday, and comment negatively, like i just pick up my slides of dustbin before i meet him.
seriously, he step my work saying anyone could do it in 2 days...and, i don remember what word is use, but conclusively, i feel awful~
(he click on a folder with hundred of slides by his student, and easily spotted one person slides and open it as my example, know who is that? MR. TEE, AKA, big brother)

sigh~~ big brother so stunning, just like all my sons, and i am so ordinary~

using the same content of slides, add on something and editing for improvement, today afternoon meeting him, he said is alright
oh, i feel like he is feeding me one mouth of shit yesterday,then today feed you sweet,
unexpectedly~

but the good thing is, he say we are ready for presentation, and wanted a photo session with us after our presentation on thursday.
appreciating us?

honestly, sometimes i don know whether to like him or not...

joining bac COS this semester, orally. i went for few practice but i haven't yet met my instrument junior thou i plan to meet them and teach them a little, i am too busy.
and coming thursday is 5th anniversary of COS, well, i think if i am free enough, i will play for it.

sitting in the ensemble as a senior, senior than the conductor(she respect me a little too awkward, she look as me for opinion when got argument in decision during ensemble and say thank you for me to play),
ai ai , people see me as so senior, feel like i also selling high...but sometimes feeling like sitting in dizi place as a spokeman, talking rubbish and laugh with 2 big junior, telling them things that they don't know, teaching them to cheat, to pretend play...
i feel my existence brought them secure... i glad that i can do that.

what a feeling to be someone people rely on...

living in the past

2008-08-26T17:05:00.003+08:00

lately life is disastrous

since last week, 2 lab report, one assignment me as the leader, 2 assignment following leaders instruction, OR perhaps test, Law confirm test, final year project...
is screwing my life...

and i am divorce, and my son is leaving....
i am falling a part...

oh, my getting prettier wife, what a reluctance to let you go...but is time to move on.
sometimes i feel i am living in the past, talking of the history that so far away, our topic of chatter start to stuck on the past and our current living issues is too complicated to explain to each other..
this widen our gap, and dunno since when, i am not the first one come in your mind and neither in your mind...
phing2, get a good boy fren, and will start a new view of life...have someone to attach and rely on.
i will be happy and wish you all the best

well, i do advise her not to have sex yet, without precautions...

and well, for eldest son..
departuring to UK to further his study...
a promise of will arrange a date before he left, is waive... but he compensate it with another promise saying he will sent me post card~
i hope it wouldn't be waive again with e-card thru email~

son and ex-wife....
why are you people always in my mind, why a i so bothered by you people?
is it becuz of the position as promise i made?
or it is a curse?

i should get a gf too, but can't get one because i need one isn't it...
i got to search for someone who can charmed me, which still now, i never met one..

i am so down lately~
as i am so left over and living in the past and no one aside me

(people reading this, don pity me, i am not pity)

LEE CHONG WEI@OLYMPIC 2008, BEIJING

2008-08-18T10:28:00.004+08:00

Olympic start in Beijing few weeks ago, and the opening happen to held during our midterm break,Fortunately, I watch it.

It is fantastic, but honestly, I feel lack of something, short of something…

I don’t know, maybe is the climax or what..

The visual is perfect, but maybe is not live, the audio…

But, is great

I like to watch sports, pressing astro channel 8XX up and down, watching swimming, gymnastic, weight lifting, basketball…

Is entertaining, but I am not eager to chase any particular game, maybe at the time I watch, is all preminary round.

Then my school starts, and Olympic game is just a part of conversation instead of game watching.

I don’t have astro, don’t have tv, and I don’t like to watch program when I can watch only ‘sometimes’.

Maybe is my character, I just don’t want things that I cannot own completely.

So, I rather not watch at all.

My housemate happen to irritates me with his eager-ism, enthusiasm, passionate or whatever~

BY! Using streaming, and the streaming strength is as powerful as bit comet, make you (not watching), feel the power of Olympic, cuz you cannot online already.

As the internet strength is unpredictable sometimes, and for the semi-game of Malaysia badminton, my housemate and aj gather and went to Emily place to watch tv.

And I am dig from bed, and ask not to be lazy, please go to school by aj, and I am suppose to pay the bills, collect book from XX for him as he went to watch the play~

Then some conflict kinda happen there, Emily is NA, and so aj contact kiki to get into the house.

In the house while they are watching, kiki leave the house to kl, and left the house key with aj and housemate.

Emily then return and realize, oh~! Why are you people here! Got shock, and housemate them showing off their appearance of surprise..

Emily got angry as they intrude her house without informing, the one who entertain them (kiki), is already NA, and they have the key! Emily feel like her privacy being evade!

Her anger that kiki’s bf have the housekey got exaggerate and transfer into housemates, and feel why everyone have the house key and can access the house?

As the game tense up, housemate shouting, screaming…in the same time, tense up Emily too.

Well, I tried to be the middle man to solve things for both parties after that, and…

I feel they are firing on me, fine! I quit!

You both just break up!

(Well, I guess things solve by itself at the end)

And, so, I hate LeeCHONGWEI, and Malaysia badminton.

Until leeCHONGWEI sitting on the position of silver, chasing for the gold, the play of the final.

That night, I am at library, I am not keen about the result, nor the game…

I know it is big, cause all Malaysian players fall off half way chasing medal, ALL player is out, but him.

So he is big….

Result was pretty terrible, Malaysia lost

Thou with the silver medal

Then Sue tell me, ‘he cried’

And sent to me a clip: ‘LIN DAN playing a game in Malaysia badminton open, got runner up; when the prize giving, the people wear the medal for him, he remove one second immediately, and refuse the traditional hat of Sarawak the organizer gave…’oh, such insult, I hate him…

‘How much he got to bear to be ‘only hope’ of Malaysian?’ suddenly I feel guilty

I am too stupid to hate him becuz of something not related to him!

That night, Sue and I try to find ways to support him, starting from searching his house address online, then found Malaysian board of badminton address, then plan to sent him thank you, congrats card…

But we got something better, we then found his blog, lots of people leave comment there to support him, then we think, sending a card to Malaysia board of badminton the chances for him to read is even lesser than writing a comment in his blog.

‘http://blog.leechongwei82.com/?p=113’

Supporters of Malaysia dedicated him hundred of comment, supporting him…

I feel reading those comment, he will cry again…

Recall a song:

孤独站在这舞台
听到掌声响起来
…

好像初次的舞台
听到第一声喝采
我的眼泪忍不住掉下来
经过多少失败
经过多少等等
告诉自己要忍耐

Alone in the stage, listen to the clapping~

Sometimes, I am a performer, the lonely feeling of standing in the stage, can be see as fame, also a lonely feelings.

Thinking of myself being a performer, as the dizi perfomer, how many times I escape from the stage because of my fear? (Refuse to play), how many time I just disappear because I am not keen, lazy to continue?

Because this is just my interest, but for him, the stage arena is his career…is his life.

Bearing the ‘only hope’ of Malaysia, standing in the foreign stage…did he ever think to quit?

Did he ever think of running away?

I guess he did, but still end up we see him play on tv

Is the courage…

I feel so inspired by him,

It is not easy, and it shouldn’t be~

Flipping open the news paper and see people in political arena fighting to get power, getting people attention on rubbish back stabbing…

The attention should be on those who bear pressure go overseas fighting for the glory for Malaysia…

I think every single people in Malaysia is already sick of all political issues that got stir up since the general election months ago~

At least I am, I thinking when they are going to settle down and do their job…

Well, I am sorry I hate you days ago, but now LEE CHONG WEI, you are our hero, our pride, our champion

DIZI CENTRAL MUSIC GRADING EXAMINATION

2008-08-18T09:42:00.003+08:00

Life lately or life of this semester had been the most fulfilling semester for my entire university life.
I thought I was the busiest during last semester, but this semester simply gets worst.
The busy start from the very beginning of the semester and last, and never end until even the mid term break, until now.

The tasks come and go come and go.

The latest task I had accomplished is the dizi central music grading exam held last Saturday.

Well, Glass pick me up at 830am and then pick up our teacher, then we go and have breakfast, then we head to the examination place.
Bout 5minutes of waiting, Glass is call into the room, phew~
At least I got few minutes more than Glass to prepare, to calm down, to suit myself a little bit more than he does.

Then my turn,

1^st piece, the practice choral

2^nd piece, gu shu xing《姑苏行》,well, just before I reach the tempo part, he stop me and said: 可以了，下一首（means, ok d, next piece）

3^rd piece, well, 《塔塔尔舞曲》，as I am expecting him to stop me as he did for the previous song, I cannot concentrate…try to imagine you playing the song and what is in your mind is, when is he going to stop me?

Well, he did stop me, and say: 好了（done）

I said：哈？

He said: 阿，好了，考完了~(Ah, is done, finish exam)

(Well, actually after that still got 2 parts, the rhythm test, the singing test, obvious enough, he skip all of it)

Frankly, I am not nervous at all facing the examiner, embracing the principle, I will show you what I have.

And so, I perform my 100% for 2^nd piece(which is actually the 1^st song, as the piece I play 1^st is the practice choral)

But the 2^nd song, I have weird thought in my head, and I couldn’t even start well, but surprisingly, he listen the song more than 1^st song.

As for Glass, in comparison, the 1^st song he played longer than mine and shorter than mine for the 2^nd song.

Why? Why do he stop us from finishing the song?

Answer by my teacher: because your introduction cannot attract his attention to listen the preceding.

Am I hurt?
Well, not much actually, just feel bothered because he never let you finish it.

Maybe he have his reason, after us, he have lots more to examine? But this is terrible reason! He should be professional! Recall my piano examination, no matter how terrible the student play, the examiner will listen the whole piece and write comment…

But he didn’t!

My teacher said: he is the professor of China central music school, major ERHU.

Well, I guess since he is prof, the song I played is common song, he listen to them N million times already, and I just happen to be too ordinary~

So, no hard feelings beside the regret he never like to finish my song,

(I practice so hard for the ending part, as I hope is to play a balance song, don’t want a case where you can play your beginning perfect but end like shit), but the case happen is so unexpected~Ending is ignored. )

I tried my best and, one stress source release, I feel glad.

(my fees increase 100% after this grade 5, and i wish to buy another tune of dizi to complete the whole set of tune i have, I struggle days thinking should I continue learning, should I complete the set of dizi I having~~, the fees change from rm20 a class to rm40 a class, means if I have class 4 times a month, means? And the newly price dizi cost rm430, oh, since when dizi become the game of the royal? The rich?

Struggle, discuss with Sue and thinking of own self, about the questionà worth it or not? (Is not the matter of affordability, is the matter of worth it or not)

Well, I decide, cash can be earn one day after this, but the time I can spent on dizi, the level, the path I had reach now, may not be the same day after this…

Thinking one day when I old, do I rather regret of:

1. I shouldn’t waste money learn dizi, is stupid!

2. I should learn at the time, is just money it consume.

No.1 is like you bought something, at up you don’t like and complain that you shouldn’t buy it at all,

No.2 is you didn’t buy it, at up regret that you didn’t buy?

I think I wish my regret is no.1,

So, I will proceed.

bad luck wil bring good lucks

2008-07-30T00:19:00.003+08:00

i think this semester is a bad luck semester~

故天将降大任于是人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空伐其身行，行弗乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能.

this quote had make my day~
saying that if the fate were to arrange some great responsibility on you, then it will torture your spirit and physical, make you hungry thus thin, make your life mess up and you do things wrongly, screwing up everything~
i think what i had endure lately, enough for me to be crown as some general king or something big...

i had bad, seriously bad horrible days.

but!
lets not talk about it, good things will still happen i hope...
i believe the greater the bad things strike you, it leads the same magnitude of good to you...
is a balance world, this is how it works..

khaled, as usual, he is psychos~
he said he will never spoon feed us in teaching~
this is what he do to us: when we tell him we are stuck in one question, he ask us to redo it infront of him, the whole class redi.
then he refuse to tell us whats wrong, but insisting us to try it...
when we ask, is it because of XX and blabla?
he say: good! try it( without telling you the truth!~)
and this cycle last 2 hours plus.

so, you will have to doing it again and again with different method, banging your head in unknown direction...
he said there is a step of doing question like that, but he will not tell us now
(ofcuz it sound pretty relax reading this post, how you people going to imagine how he stare at you and ask you question and insist you to answer while you don't even know what he talking?
and he threaten you he is going to leave immediately if he got no response for you....
you can only pray somebody in the class come to rescue~)

thou he then explain the steps to us in the next day~
but how could he let us go easy, he again torture us~ (and lets not go into detail)

fyp?final year project?
how bout fyp?
the blog topic will stick on khaled too~is kaizenboy.blogspot.com, is KAIZEN!
is my fyp title, as long as this blog stay, i will talk about khaled.

i shown him my progress, actually i have no progress until few hours before i met him, when i rearrange everything i have...(and! the point is, every thing i have, includes the journals, and the summary i have, is all done during the 2nd week, refer back to my previous post and see how terrible my life could be, seeing it back, it is still horrible, imagine i had done half a semester of work during week 2 of the semester~~)
i guess i just have to see him before the mid term break.

so, see, this is the good deed the suffer at 2nd week brings to me...
at least now i don have progress and i can still see him and show him everything like i am been doing it so hard.
and know what?
he said what i did is very good.
the progress at this period, and the direction and my idea~

i got khaled compliment!

i almost cried~
(rubbish)

and lastly, i would say it is about my housemate,
i am staying in a house with 3 people, i, Tony, and SUB

SUB is troublesome people, and i am not friendly, and he think i am not friendly(which is true), and feel upset bout that.
and i don't care.

i am a group leader of this particular subject and i sent everyone email, with PDF journal attach on it, and ask everyone to summarize the respective journal.
because i am lazy to get a meeting, is stupid, so i simply sent email to everyone.
then i forget about it, i didn't even mention to Emily or shorty or whoever~
and SUB happen to be one of them i didn't inform face to face(actually none of them i tell in face), and he is upset,
he complain to Tony that i treated him like outsider(i don know what makes he is insider thou)
then he ask me to tell him in direct if got anything, don sent email...
i tell him that i didn't do this particularly to him, i do it even to my close fren~
and so he emphasize that we stay in the same house~

ble!
duh!!i sometimes SMS Tony while i am just playing computer beside his room~
don't get it why he think we are so close~

we are like SUBstitute to him, when he like to have dinner, lunch with you, we are expected to call him along, but if he is not interested, he didn't bother to let you know~
his out going plan, movie fun or whatever, thou i am not interested to follow, but he never ask too, and we are expected to be close?

hell no!
we are NOT close, i hate you, and i feel you don't like me either~
i am fine with it~!i am not friendly, this is not something new on me.

well, this is just some case, want more? tell me, i will give you more....
but this is not interesting...

well, life goes on~
life is hard...

i am fed up with you too ;)

2008-07-22T19:38:00.002+08:00

Khaled is totally random, absurd and ridiculous and unpredictable!

Well, today is Tuesday, last few weeks the whole class one sound agree to have the mid term test today, and yesterday, he ask us is it ok to have it today…

And great, my fellow class mate feel it is too rush, then say it is NOT OK..

Then he ask us to crack out a date.

Well, for me, it doesn’t matter me much.

Lately, this slumberness has strike me, and I feel pressure zero for anything…

Come what may

So, they ask me for suggestion, I said anything will do.

Some of them propose after mid break, some them say next week, Thursday, night morning Saturday and whatever~~

After mid break is proposed by ‘fox eyes’, and Julian said, cannot! After mid break got more test, why drag it after break..

After some argument, ‘fox eyes’ came out with the proposal of after break again, then Julian got frustrated and say: why are you keep saying after break! I told you, lots of us cannot do that, lots of subject after the break!

Khaled: oh, now we have conflict huh~

Then come out with the solution is either….see, people, EITHER this Thursday or next Thursday

Helo~

EITHER?Means what?

Last week, we plan to go for movie, and due to this Tuesday test, my weekend is totally ruin~

And now, the test is like, ‘I don’t know’ quote, khaled

Fine, it doesn’t matter me.

So, for this particular day, I am as usual, slumber~

Today Tuesday, during his tutorial session, he said, THIS Thursday, and see he can get the room or not..
Again, this is EITHER right?
Hey, is now just me is the one who feel confuse, I ask KKK too, he is confuse too.

He ask us about one example he gave us, which is actually only one question, but consist of 10 pages…

I didn’t get that example yet actually….and never really intend to study.

Come on, 10 page one question…

Haha, I guess I am not the only one, cuz when he ask any problem while reading that, no one actually answer him…

And he said we didn’t study, and we all shall get zero for the test…

After that he said that we should at least get 50% of the marks…

The mid term should cover 3 chapter, and today he said, take out the 3^rd chapter.

And he start to tell us that he got to go kl on this Friday and something, as usual, the story stop half way without reason, and end with ‘ I don’t know’

And asking whoever got appointment with him on Friday don’t go and see him, and Mini’s appointment is on Friday, Mini request for another appointment, then he say Tuesday afternoon he got appointment with ‘point to me and kkk’…

Then he ask: are you guys coming to see me this afternoon?

Km, kkk: no….

Khaled: Fantastic! Then you can come this afternoon(talk to MINI)

=.=’’’

Seriously~ I don’t see you today, and it suppose to be fantastic?

Long sigh~~

What am I for him?

I think is my turn to say, I am fed up with you too~

Actually i can cook~~ a little

2008-07-19T19:04:00.000+08:00

Today, is Friday~

Is holiday, cause I skipped class and sleep
Due to Khaled suddenly add on another topic on next Tuesday mid term exam, our plan for today batman is canceled.

Why cancel? Cause to study? No, not at all…
Is the guilt that you go to movie, you feel guilty.
But you stay at house and sleep, you don’t feel guilty~
Weird huh

But! We got alternative plan too, today is cook day.
Me will be responsible for the vege, kangkung(I choose myself from the market )
Aj will be responsible for the meat+egg
And emolai will be playing with her skill on chicken breast and mushroom and ginger ++

Until I met Sue online at about 4pm, I told her about our plan on cooking and consulted her on vege thing
She is like si lai already~ she knows how to play with the vege. (not only that, when I having the period where the water is so mudy, I ruin my cloth when I put it to wash, Sue also teach me to bleach them back to white)
She asks me go wash it now, and rinse and put salt and soak, then rinse and wash then put there.
So good.
But lucky me, I buy the vege the time, I see it clean d only I buy~
:D

So, after aj done with his eggs, and emolai teach us how to do the ginger chicken, is my turn to perform..
This is my 1st time, normally at home, I am the 2nd hand to play with cooking.
I will be ask to wash the vege, cut the garlic and fry them before start putting in everything….
And then my mother will take over..
I never get the chance to cook something on my own..
So, what I can do is just observe and learn.

Result~
I cook nicely~;D
Indeed, everyone cooking was so alright, have a very nice meal. Serenity

(day after that, Saturday, cook another type of vege, with some meat in it, and it turn out nicely too! )
Victory!
I am addicted in cooking!

dizi exam

2008-07-15T19:30:00.001+08:00

Last week was really hard.
MMU department demand me to drop one of my subject to satisfy 18 hour maximum, I dropped my favorite survival course, my computer spoil, after restored, my keyboard break down cause I pour water on it(and it said it is split resistance, rubbish!), do the summary for my supervisor and then he said he don’t want, writing is a waste of time, grouping matter make me feel awkward seeing my housemate, weirdo walking in and out my house and Emily happen to be here when weirdo is in my house, she will ask: who is that? I wil say I don know~

Nevermind~

This week will be hard too, but a little easier I hope.
Have a lab on Tuesday, Thursday a assignment, nex Tuesday lab report, nex Tuesday midterm.
Means, this weekend is a Malacca week.

I went to practice my dizi beside my house at the park there, at the corner where I used to play and get the serenity of playing. I thought I am capable to eliminate the disturbance around and play in my world, but today it seems I am very bothered by people walking around, the mosquitoes, the ants, the worms~

I can’t play freely, I have constraint; when I have constraint, I don’t play nicely

This particular uncle who always happen to come back and park his car nearby the park at this particular timing, come too~
Today he say to me, very good, got lots improvement~

After he play around with his little jungle (he plants something nearby there, a papaya, some pandan leaves and blabla~)
He said: you are very good, you joined competition?
I said: erm, I don’t think there is competition like that….but I have exam
(He then said maybe hongkong and china might have~)

Well, I think he is the only one who gives me compliment In this path of practicing for my dizi exam ~
Very great encouragement~

My teacher’s greatest compliment is: if you eliminate X, Y, Z(some factor to be correct), then you can get good result~

My housemate greatest compliment is: ok la~~
Then I said: ok only ah? I thought I am very good?
He said: not bad la~~
I said: Then I play for you again (prepare~~)
He said: no need la~~
I said: is really that bad huh!?
He said: is not bad, is too loud~ ; )

My sister: shouting! You can play other time or not! Very noisy ah!

My EX ixora housemate: (door slam)

MMU guard: Sudah habis? sudah mau tutup pintu~
(if i play in Fser)

So, how could I not appreciate this uncle’s compliment~

Movie marathon

2008-07-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

Today is Friday, is my favourite day, because it is the nearest to weekends, i love weekend...

since we are still manage to dig some time, we must appreciate it...

put down everything, and take a day break...life goes on no matter how busy you are.

after class, we went lunch, after lunch we

Hancock

i like Superman Return because it shows that even superheroes have feelings, sad and sorrow especially. and this superheroes movie, simply focus on their personality.
ofcuz includes too the action~ stunning!

wanted

How could i miss Angelina show, she is old, as emolai said, but she is as well stunning
doing lots of charity, who cares she is pretending or what, she did pretend right~
pretend to donate money? adopt kids and stay with them? visit ulu war place?
hey, if she is pretend, she is good too
everyone should together pretend like her.
love her
oh, back to the movie, how was it? i survey this movie with lots of people, 50-50.
bad and good fed back
i will say, i buy it. i like it
a little bit too exagerate, but, come on, is movie...let go your rationality.

see?

we went walking around and i realize that i want a shoes for my survival course nex wednesday, as we are going in the jungle. even it is just a walk, we cannot predict the condition of the ground. it might be mudy~
walking with my Camel 'in door' shoes, i will definitely get my face land on the ground

and! i bought it with rm50!
is cheap!
sales~~ i like malaysia sales
(p/s: sue, jusco day is coming, so before that, the sales is damn so hot, wish you could happen to come b4 the day....then you can get something cheap as souverneir back)

lately one of my pet, DOG~

is changing to behave very weirdly.....
something is missing, something is not right anymore...

another of my pet, bisexual~ her/his name is DUNO~
it likes to eat lights, and like to shake his head.

'tomorrow is going to be better'

khaled: i am fed up with you

2008-07-03T18:28:00.000+08:00

i am taking china chinese instrument grading test this coming august,
the rules stated that we are required to play 2 song, and one scale...

i had my chinese flute class yesterday night, my teacher who always give me pressure never praise me in any sense before said one of my song was alright(with lots of except here and there should be like this like that ofcuz),
but hey, he saying that i am alright...

finally, i feel confident a little...
if this is a strategy, by next lesson, he will be complaining again, maybe saying last week i was better or sort....

but another song, still not yet in the path...

while i was glad-ing that finally something getting into path...
you know, survival course got a proper lesson next week, my dizi practicing, decided to help out COS...
this particular evening after i went to post office and get my post laju envelope, i went to khaled class...
(i am not late, he was early)
while i am asking emily what i missed...
he turn to us, pointing at me and KKK, you guys got problems.
his slang i cannot learn, but the rough meaning is something like we are not in the right direction yet, once we are in the right path, then we no need to see him often, just see him when necessary.
and, we are not there yet...
suddently he said to KKK: you can work on Kanban(another of japanese concept)

and talk to me: ..you, ....i don't know, i am fed up with you... you know, it is like starting up a car, cannot ignites, i feel tired already..

=.='''

seriously, what i did wrong?he assigned me a job this tuesday asking me to pass up my summary of what i read nex week, and after 2 days he is fed up with me? T.T

nvm, cool...
this is him
FAB and MINI(the other 2 of his student, ladies, and his favourite) contrast my bad.
i should had know his style when i choose him as my supervisor, who to blame?no one.

his lecture OR(operation research), is an elective over ICE(internal combustion engine), and obviously i choose OR...
this is the 3rd week, we have 9 hours lecture and 2 and a half tutorial, we haven't yet done with one chapter.there is only 10 student in his class, during lecture, he looking at all of us, staring at you, and ask: get it? GET IT?

then you can only say YES YES, UNDERSTAND...actually i don't.
i wanted to choose not to answer, everyone wanted to do that, but too bad, he said if we keep quiet, then he will make very bad mid term for us.
and he telling us he is trying to make us like OR...T.T

in contrast, ICE only have one hour lecture in 3 weeks, and done with one chap, and everyone say it is very easy

life is always not perfect
bad instead.

(today i draw birthday paper during lecture, not OR ofcuz,
happy birthday 2nd son, people reading this, wish him happy)

ulu boy & the chiew kap geng comment saver!

2008-07-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

haro! i'm the guest blogger of kaizen boy. kaizen boy accidentally disable the comment status.. maybe because he has been abandoning his blog(s) for too long.

okay so this blog has got new skin. the reason i chose this colour is because it has this tree kinda feel, dont u tink so? ;)

til next time! good day~

:)

Survival course 2

2008-07-02T18:29:00.000+08:00

Survival course 2
Today is the 2nd class, mission is to know a new friend.
Survive in the class, with friend is a must, and this is simply a part of the syllabus (I said so)

I am waiting for a malay po, during zeroth class she sat beside me and I ask her where is the teacher
Also waiting for calligraphy boy and prepare the speech: eh! I remember you, you are from calligraphy class rig..and bla..
In the same time sms Sue

I guess chance come, you don't grasp, no 2nd chance come…
Zeroth week malay po, 1st week calli boy, miss both the chances to know them…
If I miss today chance, I will regret…

So, after 20 minutes, I talk to the gal beside me..
Is a Chinese gal, she looks sweet, not the one to share treasure hunt story gal.
I said: hi, my name is khaimun, erm..did he just said next week got outing? (the speech is actually in Chinese)
(The teacher say next week going to Ayer Keroh hutan recreaksi, play rope)

She said: I think so, and I know you… you from COS (Chinese orchestra society) right? I remember you.
Km:

Km: serious? How come I don’t know you? But I quit already wor…

She: you play dizi de rig, the time I alpha, you are still there I guess

Km: so you from COS also, what instrument you playing?

(After that, conversation continue a little, and I ask for his phone, his email msn and tell him anything I will call you)

Sue! Your comment is right, music did really bring me good luck~

Since the semester starts, at khaled case, at survival course case, COS had do me favor
So, if the situation allow, COS, this semester, you got me
I will be your flute player once again (if you want me) , big pay back k, i am seriously busy k

The class then continue for about 40 minutes, and the teacher really putting everything on us, ourself..
He chooses the calligraphy boy as monitor, good enough, because he needs attention.
Monitor are required to discuss with us when to go outing, Jelebu, (a jungle, we going to stay there), or Tioman, or both(sea and mountain ma, good for feng shui)
He think that we should separate into 2 group, 2 organizing group to organize the trip… if the group of people successful bring the class there, the whole group got A…sort of marking.
Hey, he said easy get A, this is not that easy to suit the whole class.

He then say bye and left us, ask us to discuss.

The class discussion with monitor start with the selection of committee, suggestion are 100% satisfy, you point her, then she become who you want her to be….everyone wants to go home early, everyone agree with anything. What to do, we don’t know each other, how to vote….cin cai lo
And ending up decided to go trip at the beginning of mid term break.

This is going to be the most interesting mid break I will get…

the journey of SURVIVAL BEGINS~~

survival course 1

2008-07-02T18:24:00.000+08:00

Survival course

I am taking this particular cocu subject, it teach us how to live in the jungle(jungle trekking..), sea(kayaking, swimming), navigating, and blabla..
Sort of things, so don’t ask me what it is anymore.

Today is the 2nd lesson, so talk about what happen in the 1st lesson. (ohya, actually there is a zeroth lesson, people waiting for half an hour and end up I walk out and the whole class dismiss with me leaving)
1st lesson, It was nothing, seriously nothing.
3 teachers came in, and intro and saying that the teaching will be conduct in malay…
IS oppose, but too bad, it still conduct in malay. (Teacher asks them to sit in between Malaysian, and ask them to translate, what kind of teaching is this?)
It is stupid actually, they tell us very little info about the subject only, but did successful make me have the concept that this subject, is totally screw up, there is no fixed syllabus, no scope…and the teacher don’t really know what to do with us.
Don’t get mmu wrong, mmu didn’t force them to teach this, these teachers proposed the subject.
They know lots of knowledge I guess, but if there is no syllabus to teaching, they just share their knowledge in random?

And I know no one in the class, I am so alone… I was thinking, I am going to drop this stupid subject..
Until!!
Km: sir, so is there any test? Final? Mid term?

Cikgu: ofcuz~ there will be written test (oh, good, then at least there is something to study) but not much… 60% is attendance.

People: wah!!!

Cikgu: not enough? Then make it 70%..ok?

Km: (I am not going to drop this subject already)

Cikgu: then 30% written test…

They then convince us that this is not only easy to get A, but easy to get A+
So, I think maybe I should giv it a shot…

Until!
Class introduction, everyone are required to stand up and intro, and tell everyone your own experience in outing.
Until me, I stood up and intro my name, (excluding my academicals age, epsilon is simply too old for cocu), and
Km: allow me to use English, BM saya, lama tak guna, macam tak pernah belajar langsung…I don’t actually have any outdoor experience, basically I sleep all day long, just sleep.

(oh, I tot it would be funny, but apparently it is not, I become a weirdo out of sudden, people looking at me, and expect me to continue…it become cold until the teacher say, oh you just sleep study eat and sleep right?)
Km: not much on study, sleep more…
(then sit)

I want to slap myself suddenly

I want to drop the subject,

when more weirdo appear after me, one of them appear to be too shy to talk, after saying his name, he shut….teacher force him to say something (duh, something, say you don like outing, you don’t do outing at all), he resist to talk anymore, but grin….
And some ‘appearance’ weirdo (you will not be interested to talk to them when you see them kind of weirdo), say they play computer games only
And some do not have outing experience, but like to talk, like this gal, she share her experience of treasure hunt, saying the people will bluff you about the info, then you got to becareful….
(Until people start talking, cuz no one interested anymore…)

Until this guy sitting beside me, very active, cannot stop moving and talking..
He pat me and smile to me good bye me at the end of the class, say see you.
Oh, I remember him; he is my class mate during my calligraphy class!
I should talk to him just now; he is a good people. Except that he is too noisy, like need attention.

I will stay, I won’t drop

Thanks to you calligraphy boy
Make me feel the world is afterall a warm place(yes, the room have no air con, it is so hot!)

kaizen boy, the prologue

2008-07-02T10:54:00.000+08:00

welcome to my 3rd blog, the previous one, i throw them away already, don't mind them...

i don know why do i want to blog as i am so busy this semester, maybe this is a channel to release stress? imagine every sentences of mine wil be read by somebody, get it shared, i will glad.

some intro will do,
i am taking 6 subject this semester, including one final year project or thesis or whatever, one cocu subject, survival course(is something like how to survive in sea, jungle, hiking, navigation and stuff), and other is... you know, subjects...

my final year project supervisor khaled told me 6 subject is too heavy,
(hinting me to drop one), then ask me to consult my academy advisor, i did, and he did too...
still ending up telling me it is too heavy, thou at last he accepted me as his fyp student.
but his acceptance is quite dramatic, he never really like me with my result....i am just average..
until:
khaled: what activities you join? a lot? (means: why the result so so only?)

km: no, i just join chinese orchestra (i quit already thou, i just went to instrument lesson)

khaled: orchetra? (got excited), what instrument you play?

km: dizi, chinese flute, and show how i play it....

khaled: (he imitate my action holding flute), you know, in europe, they have instrument like this too...

km: ohya, i know, is call flute, i played that during my secondary school, i join school band...

khaled: ya? you know, it is good, music is good.....(silent a while), you know, i like piano, violin, they are beautiful...

km: i actually play piano, but haven't get to finish the grading exam...

khaled: why?

km: well, i will, after i finish my study here in malacca...

khaled: silent a while... then say, ok, you fill in the forms and giv it to me, then we will see how (one lecturer are considered to accept somebody when he take forms from him/her, as they sign the form, you are his study)

km: (overjoyed) oh, ok, tml? later? i can giv it to you later (i don know wait suddenly he change his mind or what)

khaled: doesn't matter, tml will do....

km: ok!

khaled: know what, you got really lucky, you got this title because of the music..i feel you are a very sentimental person..

km: ......(should i say thank you? i feel insulted a little....)

*my topic have nothing to do with music at all

so, kaizen approach in manufacturing sector.
here am i, the kaizen boy...
the path full with torn, i begin my jouney...
(ouch~ omg)