membrane done, fleed the score

我的笛膜粘好了，然后谱就全部飞掉了

today, is the worst performance i ever had in my performers life, since secondary school till now,
big big small small all sort of performance,
from raining till night, no light, mud place, no audience, sick condition....
today, is the worst

ok,
today have 2 performance, morning one, afternoon one
player: 7 fairies

morning
830 say gather, i reach at 9am, but i am the 3rd one there *early huh
we drag, the performance also drag till around 1130 am only our turn to play.

in the fucking hot weather, open space, got roof but no fan

and so, my dizi
(lesson 1: dizi have a hole that have to be plaster by a very thin membrane of plant, as it vibrates it to produce pretty sound)
the membrane, is X X , not tore, not broken, but some terrible thing happen in within due to the high temperature i guess
as i can't see it in apparent, i take it, play it...and so,

terrible sound are produced, and i don know why *by the time

song to songs, i am frustrating in embarrassed situation finding out whats wrong with me, or the dizi...

v play 10 song, at around the 8th song, i decided to change the membrane （for 7 song, i am fucking myself..yea...something seems so easy in normal day, seems so impossible and u don;t understand why.. is like u forgot how do math 3+9 =?... and u don know why u don know how)
oh,
then i know is the damage of the membrane....
(after i change it, i am normal again. 3+9 is 12..)

i played the 8th song, 9th song..and 10th song?
strong wind come and bring my score sheet to vacation...

~~(imagine the awkward situation where i am chasing around for the sheets T.T)




--
afternoon session,
maybe is just fated to have 2 performance in a day, this 2 shot day never situation never happen before.
cuz the afternoon session, is the normal me, where besides 3+9, i can do math like algebras and probability, just like the me~



so, it got bac neutral of the negativity


baby conductor said lately i am a little lack of confident in playing...

yea, i am...
1. i got critics from the big conductor saying that my tune is out, sharp or flat, sharp and flat...
there is not certain button or string or valve i can adjust to make it right,
i just have to adjust my lips to make it right... or like 'red cliff' dig the dizi hole (is true)
adjusting the lips...this is just so a variable that cant be totally fix

2. a player from cyber, is great
one day of practice, he came back mlc and play with us... know what, i feel pressure

3. i stop attending instrument lesson
this means that my skill is not under polishing state, it is either sustaining or de-improving
most probably de-improving

4. i didnt much practice

ok,
too much negativity!


smile! 4 beauty from 7 fairies
from left: see tzu西施, gui fei yang杨贵妃,diao can貂蝉, wang zao jun王昭君
(why leh? see tzu wear white is just nice, yang guifei cuz chubby, black is wit so diao chan, and the one that married to northern to sustain the country peace, is wang zao jun, must got pretty smile, yea, thank u~)



3 pretty from 7 fairies
from left: zhao fei yan（赵飞燕）, shu dan ji（苏旦己）, qi fu ren(戚夫人）

haha, getting happier creditting people with history remarkable beauties, but with awful background and motive of existence~

lots more to explain of these character
;D
nex post~