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moving the blog..

click me: kaizenian!

people are telling me i am such criticism, talking people's bad like publishing news paper, is really awful...
well, upon my graduation as a university student, i had decided to change..
....
so, have a new start, in the kaizenian post ;D

savior

i got better, in fact, i am ok

special thanks to saviors

i remember once diaane told me: you are my savior! 2 times!
i said: am i?
she said: u don't know, sometimes u just appear to be talking to me in the right time...the save the day..

well, i agree
sometimes, even a smile, a silly grin, will save ur day..
(as well screw urs)

well, refer to the previous post, i am in fire~~
then i post a msg in facebook saying that i want to kill him..
then eldest son come reply and ask isit him..
well, ofcuz not, i love him, then we talk a little and, in the same time blasting song.
surprisingly, he cheer me. my tense got soften and i am relax enough to watch a movie.
i watch a movie with lots of pretty song.oh....

music is miracle isn't it?
indeed, art is... movie, painting, instruments.(maybe just me)

well, thank you el, thank you for the movie, thank you for the songs..

(right after my conversation with el, then i watch movie, right after the movie, el appear and have conversation with me again, wow.
then my fren came and drag me to dinner..thou i am not in the mood, but then eating with 2 lecturers, and a wise couple. maybe i talk crap too much, realize that talking to people with lots of knowledge and wisdom, is a little pressure, but exciting...

so, my day is saved...

bliss
(back to psp)

i hate u

猪八戒


as seems as we all hear the bell ringing
放学的钟声响起，我们都听到，收拾着书包~
看看四周，我在这里5年了，
我曾经说，我不会爱上这个地方的
那时好久以前的事了

once very long ago, seeing 18 year old big brother is like oh,
they are so huge!
while then when u are 18, u realize how 'not a big deal' it is~
so what? 18~

but then looking at a person 21, wow
they can do whatever they want, legally!
oh,
while then, i plays the same song, 'so what'


journal bearing




please take a very careful glance, u will see a very pretty breast eye lady!


the cover page of my notes~chapter 2 i think..

别人问，毕业了，干什么啊？
我说啊，不知道，前路茫茫




these pictures, is my drawing during this exam period..
this is my life,
i draw in everything, but well.. i always not to mess up with the serious stuff, like notes,
but everything beside the notes, will not be rescue.

is this fault:



一入豪门深似海
出了图书馆的门，离开了mmu的门口，是permata dunia 吗？

--
short circuit suddenly, where i have to pay the remaining bills, streamyx, electric and water,
and!
i fucking hate my housemate where he is told about the bills, rm150 per person, then he got disappear back to hometown ( i guess) without any prior notice!
so what now?
i have to pay on behalf of him! i am leaving this place soon, i exhausted all my fund in my pocket these few weeks to have better life! (but ofcuz, i have reserve some for any surprise， but not these!)

for more than a years, i never pressing button of the ATM　because of insufficient fund!
i arrange my cash nicely, and i seldom have the situation where i have to press atm machine!
and now i have to because i have to pay for u!
fuck u!

this is not all,
i press it out little, little enough to have my dignity of not pressing the machine, and add on my reserve fund, i am able to pay it. but this exhausted every of my cash i have in reserve.!
i have no more money!
i NEVER WILL ALLOW MY SELF TO HAVE NO RESERVE FUND!

oh, and the situation came,
i have a pair of rackets, where i ask my fren to bring it to repair if he going to 'the place with repair', and today, he said he is going there.
right after i pay my bill, he appear to collect my racket...

good...
FUCK U FUCK U!
i screw my pride to have reserve fund, and i end up have no money to do what i want...for monthS!

i am so pissed!

i h a t e u

(racket got repaired? no! he said he don have the money for my thing either!
ya, it is mine, and i ask u to help me on the repair, how am i going to expect u pay it....)

小毕

下个星期三，考试

由于，这个学期，只是拿两科，其中一是室课外活动，所以，就比较轻松，
而且，那一科，有了大大小小的mid term, 6 个这么多！6 个小考勒！
所以靠final的时候，就更加像是复习罢了，
再说，我们都快毕业了，要好好的享受每一天学生天~

最近玩乐很多，也很忙~
fyp hardcover deadline, 的时候，我们依然很忙，忙着找老师签名。。。
来去匆匆，才发觉，老早觉得已经解决的事情，到当时了，还没有完结！很是纳闷！
但是，真的完了，就明白，完了。。。
完了就完了，老早就庆祝了~
提早庆祝~ 好复杂的感情



我是kaizen boy!


我还是会去图书馆，但是却没有心机读书，

有人说；
既然只有一科，我要拼了老命，考个“我很尽力！”的最后一科

有人说：
都快毕业了，还那么拼么？花点时间玩吧～　同学戴安娜说：说:拿1st class的，也不用担心这一两科的影响，拿不到1st class 的，这两科也帮不到什么~

我呢？我怎么说？
好好读，好好玩～



无所事事的时候，我就会涂鸦～

i thought!

i got my fyp over with...
i thought! last week, after the submission of the report, and my presentation..
ops,
the truth is, is NOT!

the hardcover amendment!
the report we submit it to our supervisor and moderator, we have to collect it back from them,
and do the necessary amendment, and they will have to sign before we can do the hard cover.

as for others, the amendment is more like oh, see the grammatical error, oh, look, this line don't have full stop, oh, this statement should be in italic..
well, for mine,
X
eg:
1. he cross out my chapters, and tell me WRONG! rewrite!
2. <-- shouldnt this be in chapter 5?
3. ALL FORMAT WRONG in reference!

many more, this is big one...
well, this is the final already, why he didnt tell me before i submit the report..
sigh, the pity of being a abandoned student!

well, today is the due date of hardcover making.(there is a official hardcover making of the faculty, the due date of collection is today), well outside private one also have the same service, but by using the faculty service is more secure...
and what i am doing now? is waiting for his email reply..

(should i knock his door ? ohya...i tried that this morning 930 am,
but too bad, he like email...)

please!
just let me get over with this!

*.*
i want to play!

a little bit of complication randomize

had the test yesterday night, monday night, by the lecturer from egypt, who wish that there is not free time for student...
well, it was alright...
we took it quite easy... i back to klang and relax since thursday...and come back on sunday night..
then i stuck in the jam for 3 hours(normally cost me 1hour 30 mins)...
when i came back to mlc, i start scolding sue from seremban, bcuz...i think seremban is the main reason of the jam!

did i bring notes along? duh~ ofcuz not
start study on monday after lunch time..

actually the lec did told us what is coming out, and well..
it is true, with some additional surprise.. nvm, i just don't feel much negativity, or positivity


then we went to hot spring in gadek... (picture is for reference only, it wasnt that pretty at all)
but the smoky was real a little, and it is damn so high temperature

need some burning, fasten the heart beat, and unclog all the clog pores and veins
relief the muscles tension and phew~~
(ouch, it burns!)

i forget did it relax me or not, but i have good time spending time away from ...
all the...thesis, presentation, test..stuff. spending some time with the bitches, have clear skies with stars and moon, McD after that..
seems to be so luxurious~

well, as for now, back to the reality ..(consume my whole morning to back to the reality, i simply just slumber in the bed), the presentation of the fyp~
start doing the slides on today, while the presentation on thursday, which is the day after tml.
pressure? a little...but regarding who am i going to consult.

rise again, the complication of having 2 supervisor:
khaled?
sim?

why such bad fate have to fall here!

nvm~share some random pictures


returned all the library book, except the 4th one
late return, cost me around rm30...
huge number, due to my laziness to renew them from time to time.
why the 4th one not yet return? cuz i have to sent it to photocopy...
why do i particularly need to phootcopy that?
reason:
1. it is written by Imai Mizaaki, the one who introduce kaizen in 1986
(kaizen? is my thesis title)
2. this book is publish at 1991, very hard to find, even mmu mlc library cannot find. i got this book from other university library thru mmu intra, interlibrary loan

i guess it is valueble to keep a copy...even not the ori one (i can't get one)


submission day in FET office, not very crowded..
a little bit of...special? feelings...after the submission.
is a little of unwillingness to give the baby to the person, as well afraid that there is a big error there printed, yet not noticed... weird


found this thru the prom night picture database, oh, this is my favourite


hanging out in the furniture exhibition with my parent at labor day~

wishing good luck charm

to the skies of blue i call upon
dust mud sand of all creatures i whisper
wind roaring shall bring the good luck i wish of
bring me the courage, the energy
the fyp will end nice and smooth

to the kids who have interviews, goodluck

to my dear baby son who is sick~ get well soon


praying to the nature

闲了点

悠哉闲哉~

把论文解决了~
然后，又帮了帮败家子弄一弄，（过后知道有meye帮他，我就不用出手了）
果然，长得帅，就是有特别的待遇，别人总会帮你~

我还是有考试，还是要交功课，特别讨厌这个老师，
总是怕死我们得空似的~
但是，突然就觉得得空了~

想看戏，想去海边吹吹风~
想去温泉，想和朋友们去旅行，
想窝在冷气里看漫画，吃苹果
想看杂志
想无所事事
想继续收集散播在四处的照片~



喝汽水~
（今天早上printing 到530am, 去mcD都吃早餐了~）

breeze

yeah! my supervisor finally replied my email!.

well, he commented on things...
and i just finish doing all the changes~

i have class tonight, and after my class, i will do my double checking, and there goes
the PRINTING~

the work is not perfect, it is not even to be said as good job..
but, well... i do put effort..
maybe lesser than those who have sleepless night for months~
still, thinking that tml is the submission.

suddenly,

breeze..
know? the kind of feelings~

~~
what? what?
assignment due this thursday?
what?
nex monday is test 3?

screw u Mr. N, from the pyramid..

phew~ is the breeze
i am going home this week..

sad sial

today, is tuesday
tml is the submission day of the legendary fyp~

had my supervisor reply my email?
no, ofcuz not
surprise? not...



jiayung can always get to see his supervisor can have intimate relationship by gossiping

weijia can always see his supervisor by making appointment via SMS, and having intimate relationship of dating each other to play badminton

ryan who have the same supervisor as i do, always complain how bad he is...(ya, we both agree), but apparently, he replied his email...

wu wu wu...
and...
my ex kaiyeh abandoned me, and i still seek where he runaway and seek him for consultation..
and for the current supervisor, he never like to see me...
then tell me to WAIT for his email..which never come~

T.T

prom+drama+fyp 3 days

saturday,
prom day
ya, we don't consider prom as 'night', not prom night, because it consume a day, not just a night.
in the morning, we went out to shop for stuff~~
i just feel like for what i am wearing, short of something...
well, i end up with nothing helpful.


pretty?
..
..
..
just for prank~
fren's vest, bow tie, spec and my own rainbow shirt..

i wear this:

is bored i know,
just like the last time, all black~
a glimpse to the pass

the me with golden hair~
wakakaka


TVB superstar pose


humans...


hollywood
:D

well, the night end with supper at station 1...
till around 3am...
it kills me from then..

sunday 6am, i am instructed to gather in the school..
ya, AM
for the drama practice
(i am taking co-curriculum theater and we are required to do a performance, drama performance.)
i miss lots of the practice, and meeting..cuz i am busy, and it was bored, and i am always not needed..
i am a cast, well, a big K'llefe, the policeman who appear for less than 30 second at the end of the drama, come in the arrest the psycho out..
this drama performance cost us '40%', i will have to perform the ' i am putting lots of effort' thing as well, for the evaluation by the leader and lecturer..

ya, lunch break and dinner break for one hour each..
performance at night, rehearsal for the day




the chicken cast~

the drama then end at 12am, and finally i get to sleep..3am
for few hours,
my supervisor who promise to meet me in the weekend, obviously, fail me
and i can't scold him..

i meet him at 1030am
here goes the conversation that kills my day:
i said: good morning sir

he: yes?

i said: sir, regarding report? (he promise to check for me and meet me in the weekend)

he: i do not have time to read it for u

i said: ....

he: you must wait for ur turn, u are the last one who sent in....

i said: ... (?)

he: u sent in on friday in the 3am... (checking his mail..), and u sent me another one on saturday morning asking me whether i read it already or not....

i said: i sent u on thursday, right after i meet you...the one on friday is the editted one..

he: ya, ofcuz, u expect me to read the one on friday right?

i said: basically they are the same, the friday one i just editted the format...

he: ya,i know... u have to understand that on weekedn, we actually~~ (the look of 'i don't work on weekend')

i said: ya, i understand...

he: u just wait, i will reply your email (he screw many many of appointment by not replying email, his 'i will reply ur email' sucks)

i said: (very innocently) so what i can do now?

he said: i will reply ur email by today


(well, now is 6pm....do i still have to knock his door in the 10am by tomorrow?
i always do this, he hates me for this... i think..hahaha
and he will tell me: do u know that our working hour is until 5pm?)

sigh~ long sigh~

now my report is not done, and there is nothing i can do at all~
it suck!
(there was a performance at 11am, i can't make it..
i am too dull to play something cheerful)

since there is nothing i can do, i sleep the day off~

混乱

最近完结了演奏会，心情放松了不少，却也还是紧绷的，
因为有毕业论文，既是传说中的fyp啦，

然后心里其实有点懊恼，有点纳闷
现在看见乐团的同学们，就像是当时的乐队的同学。。
曾经我把华乐团的感觉和铜乐队比，就发觉一点像，却没有很像~
但是，这离别在即的感觉，、却一摸一样

当时的自己，是那么的不舍得的每一个人
我似乎已经看见那个不舍的重演了~那么的难过

这演奏会，穿这黑色衣服，带着的银色领带，和当时铜乐队的阿演奏会衣服，怎么一摸一样呢~
怎么说：下次记得回来看我们，
怎么都一样呢！
怎么一样的！

算了，

无奈在论文，
我是被supervisor 抛弃的学生，不是我不好，是别的学校给了他更好的待遇，结果就跑路了~
然后，我就被调配给别的老师，
结果，我两边跑，见了从前的，抛弃我的那一个，然后他说了一套，我做了那一套
然后，见了现在这一个，给他看了那一套，结果根本就不是他要的那一套，结果要我做另外一套~
可悲啊~
同学天天在msn status 倒数，今天的倒数，还有6天~
这些人怎么可以天天在倒数呢！
还有一个笨蛋，天天不要睡觉的在做，让我觉得自己好像无所事事~

但是，又还是会去fb,玩下mafia war, 却一直给人打抢！
去poker 那daily bonus, 2k
去malaysia kini, 看看什么时候又补选。。。
然后，今天，看了这一篇，解决了我心头的困扰：
http://malaysiakini.com/columns/102976

民主特质之一：劳民伤财

原来是本质，
其实当我看见penang又补选的时候，就在思考，会不会他麻烦的一点，是不是太浪费钱了呢？
我还小，见解当然还很嫩，
看了这一篇文章，就明白，是应该的~

*老师说这个周末会帮我看看我的论文，心里忐忑不安，
希望他好好帮我看看，却也希望他不要改太多，我没有时间改了~


the figure shown above is the 1st concert and the 2nd concert
突然觉得很骄傲，两场演出，自己都有参与~

symphonious odyssey part 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_pwgKPZ2NS8&feature=related
Oogway ascend

yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, and today is a gift, that's why it is say as 'present'





admiring the photographer...
at this angle... nice


things that i had busy for days, is now in a picture, recording in a blog, as history...


大哥说，演奏会很好～


i thought i will always be the odd one in picture, as i always have the worst pose..
but in this, jiayung, urs is awkward!



blowing part~


family,
thank you for coming~

photo is more than 2 G in my hand, this is the few i selected~
thank you for coming, thank you for listening...

symphonious odyssey,
shall the odyssey end by engraving the symphonious in everyone heart~ -lucas-

this is a odyssey, for me, for us all

绚音翔旅ｓｙｍｐｈｏｎｉｏｕｓ ｏｄｙｓｓｅｙ part 1

i am the one responsible for these,
i am so proud of myself, they are so damn pretty!

the concert ended, nicely

i like it, it was nice
thou, comment form feedback, ofcuz, negativity comment exist
well, some complication then arise, some say that hate the song, saying it better not exist, but somehow, some people like it...
just have to know how to filter those comment...

after the concert, some of the kid collected the comment form and start reading,
i intended to took it from them, but then they wish to read it..so i let them, then i left
i have big portion of the comment form with me, after i read them, some of the comment kinda sarcastic, phew~ i got a little dull seeing those.
i wish i could take those comment form from the kids, being harsh and snatch it away..
some of the comment is too harsh for them..my bad

anyway, it end, nice

suddenly the complains i have in mind, faded out,
instead, the compliments and gratitude, got contrast...

the load of being a performers and a oc, double identity, is hard
but double identity person, is needed,
it is like the bridge linking the organizing and performers..if there is no link, the organizing person will not much understand hows the performance, what kind of performance it will bring..
ofcuz, communication link can still exist, but the communication can only be done verbally, the feelings cannot be deliver.
ya, i am now expressing the gratitude towards myself, and those double identity person like me.


the general and the mastermind 将军与军师
呵呵，也是渔舟凯歌的代表，吹吹打打～



however, i was wishing that the photographer would have taken the backdrop in the picture, like this one..
the backdrop is clearly seen, pretty!

i was lucky, as a performers, as i doing the leading or solo parts..
one of the song, certain part, is my horror zone,
50-50,
sometimes it can be achieve, and sometimes, can't...
i don have lots of time to practice it N time to make it 100%, manage to get it at most to 60%..
so i am worried..i have to

recall my lecturer said: when u exam, u are worried, u are in the right direction!
only when u had work hard, u will be worried..if u don't, u have nothing to worry at all~ nothing to lose wat!~
when u are worry, only u can make it..

so, i worried
and phew~ luckily, i got it thru~

(reading the feedback form, it have compliment, as well negative comment, but not that bad~
i met my instrument teacher, he said i was alright..
my fren said i did some mistake..well, i can't recall any...)



this boy is mechanical junior, playing erhu~
my eyes hardly open...
honestly, i am damn tired


the blowing part~
...ya ya ya, i know, they are all same but me, i heard them saying to cross the leg to the left, but then i ignore, end up i am the odd one~


look at my panda eye bag..is at the state of horrible....

the photo collecting from all the cameras, is in progress...
more photo and caption to be upload..soon
to be continue......

累

很累了，才明白
自己真的不是无敌的，会死掉的~

最近忙演奏会东西，忙到三餐不继，早上到晚上，
双重身份的人们，特别忙，既又是演奏员，又是筹委

彩排，集合，走场，
工作，布置，开幕，送礼云云

忙得不亦乐乎

到最后，节目组，都好像杂务了，
全部东西都包办，连布置都牵涉了，因为设计组的人说他们忙部景，根本不可能抽空了，
买东西啊，节目组都做了
（一天的结束，去喝茶的时候，人家就问起，今天怎么的没有什么什么？
然后我就说，这个好像也是节目组的工作哦~）
荒唐了

我的司仪，3个人，
一个在总彩排过后，我们brief 他节目流程，走了排位，结束了之后，他只明白一件事情：
‘我不要做司仪了’
他没和我说，却和一些别的筹委说了，筹委们就私低下讨论怎么样办~
筹委是担心我受不住，会哭出来吗？
都不好笑，好笑的是他们私低下讨论的结果，是我去做司仪

更奇怪的事，我听到他告诉我的时候，我都不吃惊，也不惊讶，
好像理所当然的事

我受得气，太多了
我吃下的死猫，也太多了~

明天还考试呢~
还真地想要有分身呢

sad news 2

sad

my blog another sad news

my neighbor die of heart attack ...(Malacca neighbor)

he always like me to play dizi,
he is the one praising me when i practice for the dizi grading examination, he motivated me most..
he knock the house window when i was playing dizi in the house, and ask me to play outside..

he died..

i play dizi just now, 菊花台，
i never know he died just now, then i know..
uncle, this song is for u...

rest in peace..
(T.T)

human are vulnerable, random things just happen...
people, appreciate everything, everyone around u, tell them u love them, show them u love them.. u never want to regret a day when things change and u never have the chance again..

asang, 烦乱

t


deepest condolences
阿桑，a-sang, the Taiwanese female singer dies

sad sad
i always remember her song, as in the video
i am so in love with the gal, liu yifei....and the song matching the series.
i always got charmed by it...never stops

well, i just had my test over just now,
i just had the promotional exhibition opening done
(including the preparation, the decoration..blabla..)


pretty banner


never see a booth guarded with chinese instrument on the play?
oh, this is stunning, guzheng and yang qing...


precisely, it is guard by the pipa and erhu..(opposite of the exhibition board)

having exam day at the opening of the exhibition is simply driving me crazy..
we have performance, playing pop song to attract student audience..

following of the day, i couldnt concentrate in anything,

• test at night,
• fyp on the run,
• booth selling ticket..

i hangout in the booth, thinking about the concert progress...
maybe i am being too 'control', i should just let go a little to escape from the stress...
well, i feel not much pressure for the test... is not that i am confident, is that i am not that concern...i don know why

after the test,
after the exhibition opening...
i shall take a rest... (feeling sleepy in the exam hall. yawning and have a very watery eye...:D)

符咒！my fren said this gal is scary, can be a charm sticking on the wall of female toilet..



cheers